i do love them, a lot actually, but it terrifies me so much to think if i do anything wrong that they’ll leave, i can’t predict what they do/feel, i can’t control someone, i can only wish and hope for things, but i feel like im taking her away from others just so she can be a part of my fantasy

how much snow did you get?

the whole situation was essentially my fault, everything was handled privately, yet i just know that despite everything i’m still deeply connected to them

im not sure if it’s something they regret, but it really changed my perspective on the people i keep in my life, despite everything i still wanted their affection, i still wanted to at least be friends, and i broke their wishes and continued to contact them, although minimally