well done. im very proud of you
December 7, 2025 at 11:58 AM
well done. im very proud of you
im not worthy. of goodwill, of love. im not better. i wish i wasnt fixated on stuff. relatively its not that bad. i know that. i know im being dramatic. i wanna stop. i wanna stop. i wanna dtop fucking feeling like this fucking please im so fucking tired. im so fucking tired of being this person.
March 1, 2025 at 1:41 PM
im not worthy. of goodwill, of love. im not better. i wish i wasnt fixated on stuff. relatively its not that bad. i know that. i know im being dramatic. i wanna stop. i wanna stop. i wanna dtop fucking feeling like this fucking please im so fucking tired. im so fucking tired of being this person.
its coming. i can feel it coming and i feel fucking weak. i feel fucking powerless. im going to convince myself i want to. i dont keep it straight in my head. and my values are mixed up too. i dont hate that guy at all. in fact i really did love him. i probably loved my parents too. idk.
March 1, 2025 at 1:41 PM
its coming. i can feel it coming and i feel fucking weak. i feel fucking powerless. im going to convince myself i want to. i dont keep it straight in my head. and my values are mixed up too. i dont hate that guy at all. in fact i really did love him. i probably loved my parents too. idk.
i dont want to do this. i dont want to be so fucking stupid abt this shit. how do i fucking let go of this. its in my body. i feel it there. how do i relax it. i know that worrying compels the worst of it. i get paranoid and i lose touch with myself in a panic and its over. and i just feel like.
March 1, 2025 at 1:41 PM
i dont want to do this. i dont want to be so fucking stupid abt this shit. how do i fucking let go of this. its in my body. i feel it there. how do i relax it. i know that worrying compels the worst of it. i get paranoid and i lose touch with myself in a panic and its over. and i just feel like.
i dont get it. i really dont. i want to. i wanna convince myself i could just be like. a person. and live my life. but i just dont believe it. i see this desperation i feel and i corner myself so i dont do anything unwise. and when i ease up like. i am like that. i prove it to myself.
March 1, 2025 at 1:41 PM
i dont get it. i really dont. i want to. i wanna convince myself i could just be like. a person. and live my life. but i just dont believe it. i see this desperation i feel and i corner myself so i dont do anything unwise. and when i ease up like. i am like that. i prove it to myself.
how do i trust in others and myself. were just fucking human. were just like. doing whatever comes to us. and i really want to feel in control. i feel the need to enforce control over myself so i can affect my surroundings. if i loosen up ill want to control others. what is this. like what is it.
March 1, 2025 at 1:41 PM
how do i trust in others and myself. were just fucking human. were just like. doing whatever comes to us. and i really want to feel in control. i feel the need to enforce control over myself so i can affect my surroundings. if i loosen up ill want to control others. what is this. like what is it.
he didnt. my parents too. they were just doing what was natural to them. they werent sure about anything either. but i dont wanna continue this. i dont want to keep being awful man. i dont wanna keep giving others what ive been given. and i dont know how to do that but just. disappear.
March 1, 2025 at 1:41 PM
he didnt. my parents too. they were just doing what was natural to them. they werent sure about anything either. but i dont wanna continue this. i dont want to keep being awful man. i dont wanna keep giving others what ive been given. and i dont know how to do that but just. disappear.
i dont know how to relax this anxiety i feel. i know i can do wrong. i know i can take everything that hurts inside me and put it on others. how do i stop myself? i feel this tension and im compelled to like. fix it. i need to stop myself soon. i need to understand it before i make these mistakes.
March 1, 2025 at 1:41 PM
i dont know how to relax this anxiety i feel. i know i can do wrong. i know i can take everything that hurts inside me and put it on others. how do i stop myself? i feel this tension and im compelled to like. fix it. i need to stop myself soon. i need to understand it before i make these mistakes.
idk. its not like theres kids here. but theres people. why should i want to share myself with people if im like that guy. why should i get closer to tell them all this shit thats just wrong with me. i wish i just wasnt afraid and acting like a fucking child. i want to let the fuck go. but im there.
March 1, 2025 at 1:41 PM
idk. its not like theres kids here. but theres people. why should i want to share myself with people if im like that guy. why should i get closer to tell them all this shit thats just wrong with me. i wish i just wasnt afraid and acting like a fucking child. i want to let the fuck go. but im there.