sometimes i sit and tell myself nothing i’ve been through is that bad but my baseline for that has just been fucked up since development. sometimes i just Remember and i have to be sick for a little while

that would be hot and not in the good way :(

hug

i’ve learned my lesson on subjecting people to my feelings when they look like this

ugly poisonous ruinous

;’;

but like ACTUALLY

it feels like i’m being bullied

can’t stop holding my breath and there are galloping horses in my bloodstream

how to keep on keeping on hhhhhhhhhhhh today is a bad day i am so overwhelmed hhhhhhhhhh

i can’t wait to go home to my empty house and cry

i still wish for u

i’m happy for you because i don’t even know how to contain the white hot rage it fills me with