Bleh Eto
@siffrinexplosion.bsky.social
With hope crossed on our hearts
Do you still love me?
Or do you want me gone?
Or do you want me gone?
January 7, 2026 at 7:55 AM
Do you still love me?
Or do you want me gone?
Or do you want me gone?
Kinda funny how New Year’s Eve marks my exact return to 4 months without hurting myself
I don’t really know why it’s funny
I don’t really know why it’s funny
January 1, 2026 at 7:50 AM
Kinda funny how New Year’s Eve marks my exact return to 4 months without hurting myself
I don’t really know why it’s funny
I don’t really know why it’s funny
I still do love you, sister
I know I’m not good at showing it sometimes
But I do love you
I love you more than anyone else
You mean the whole world to me
I know I’m not good at showing it sometimes
But I do love you
I love you more than anyone else
You mean the whole world to me
December 15, 2025 at 10:38 PM
I still do love you, sister
I know I’m not good at showing it sometimes
But I do love you
I love you more than anyone else
You mean the whole world to me
I know I’m not good at showing it sometimes
But I do love you
I love you more than anyone else
You mean the whole world to me
Guess you’re just done with me
After everything, it just ends like this
Fuckin stellar
At least I know how much I really matter to you now
I’m just glad I got to help, even if you don’t really care about me
After everything, it just ends like this
Fuckin stellar
At least I know how much I really matter to you now
I’m just glad I got to help, even if you don’t really care about me
December 14, 2025 at 12:21 AM
Guess you’re just done with me
After everything, it just ends like this
Fuckin stellar
At least I know how much I really matter to you now
I’m just glad I got to help, even if you don’t really care about me
After everything, it just ends like this
Fuckin stellar
At least I know how much I really matter to you now
I’m just glad I got to help, even if you don’t really care about me
Uh is it concerning or not that whenever I front I just kinda randomly regress
November 20, 2025 at 2:45 AM
Uh is it concerning or not that whenever I front I just kinda randomly regress
Made it back to two months, almost 3 now :)
November 17, 2025 at 6:52 PM
Made it back to two months, almost 3 now :)
Clover’s in headspace rn and asked me to say this to you The quoted part is her message-Ema
“I am so, so proud of you.You’ve gotten so much better mentally, even without my help recently, I haven’t really needed to help you through a breakdown for a while now. I am so happy for you. I love you sis.”
“I am so, so proud of you.You’ve gotten so much better mentally, even without my help recently, I haven’t really needed to help you through a breakdown for a while now. I am so happy for you. I love you sis.”
November 15, 2025 at 8:06 PM
Clover’s in headspace rn and asked me to say this to you The quoted part is her message-Ema
“I am so, so proud of you.You’ve gotten so much better mentally, even without my help recently, I haven’t really needed to help you through a breakdown for a while now. I am so happy for you. I love you sis.”
“I am so, so proud of you.You’ve gotten so much better mentally, even without my help recently, I haven’t really needed to help you through a breakdown for a while now. I am so happy for you. I love you sis.”
Oh joy one of those nights (soul crushing loneliness and desire for physical comfort so intense it’s making me shake if I’m not holding a pillow in a hug)
November 13, 2025 at 2:33 AM
Oh joy one of those nights (soul crushing loneliness and desire for physical comfort so intense it’s making me shake if I’m not holding a pillow in a hug)
Please ignore the multiple posts from yesterday, clover had a manic breakdown.
November 12, 2025 at 6:44 PM
Please ignore the multiple posts from yesterday, clover had a manic breakdown.
Why can’t I be human right.
November 12, 2025 at 4:20 AM
Why can’t I be human right.
It’s night now. You can love me again, I’m finally real again.
November 11, 2025 at 11:34 PM
It’s night now. You can love me again, I’m finally real again.
Please
Prove me wrong. I’m begging you.
Prove me wrong. I’m begging you.
November 11, 2025 at 8:12 PM
Please
Prove me wrong. I’m begging you.
Prove me wrong. I’m begging you.
You can’t. I’m not real.
I’m not real until night
You can’t see me
I’m not real until night
I don’t matter until then
I’m not real until night
You can’t see me
I’m not real until night
I don’t matter until then
November 11, 2025 at 8:12 PM
You can’t. I’m not real.
I’m not real until night
You can’t see me
I’m not real until night
I don’t matter until then
I’m not real until night
You can’t see me
I’m not real until night
I don’t matter until then
Ha
Haha
Ahahahahah
Knew it
I’m not real yet
Not night after all, so I’m not real
Prove me wrong, please
Haha
Ahahahahah
Knew it
I’m not real yet
Not night after all, so I’m not real
Prove me wrong, please
November 11, 2025 at 8:10 PM
Ha
Haha
Ahahahahah
Knew it
I’m not real yet
Not night after all, so I’m not real
Prove me wrong, please
Haha
Ahahahahah
Knew it
I’m not real yet
Not night after all, so I’m not real
Prove me wrong, please
If I’m not real until night this will prove it. Reply. Reply. Go on. If I’m fucking real you’ll reply. You will. If I’m not real I’ll be ignored like every other fucking time over and over because I’m not real I know I’m not not until night
November 11, 2025 at 8:08 PM
If I’m not real until night this will prove it. Reply. Reply. Go on. If I’m fucking real you’ll reply. You will. If I’m not real I’ll be ignored like every other fucking time over and over because I’m not real I know I’m not not until night
Ahahahahahahah I fucking get it I don’t matter nothing I do matters until it’s night I could jump out the window right now and not die because it’s not night I’d live if I did nothing matters until night anyways
November 11, 2025 at 8:07 PM
Ahahahahahahah I fucking get it I don’t matter nothing I do matters until it’s night I could jump out the window right now and not die because it’s not night I’d live if I did nothing matters until night anyways
If I’m not real until night maybe nothing I do matters. It’s why I barely remember anything unless it’s at night. I’m not real until then. It’s why I’m alone all day except for night. It’s the only time I’m real.
November 11, 2025 at 8:05 PM
If I’m not real until night maybe nothing I do matters. It’s why I barely remember anything unless it’s at night. I’m not real until then. It’s why I’m alone all day except for night. It’s the only time I’m real.
Ha. I get it know. I get why I’m alone almost all day every day. I don’t exist. Not until night at least. I can only exist in nighttime. That’s why you only talk to me then, it’s why I only get called then. Until then I’m not real.
November 11, 2025 at 8:04 PM
Ha. I get it know. I get why I’m alone almost all day every day. I don’t exist. Not until night at least. I can only exist in nighttime. That’s why you only talk to me then, it’s why I only get called then. Until then I’m not real.
Say something. Anything. I don’t care, even if it’s wishing me to be dead. Look at me, let me know I’m real. Even if you say the most hateful things I’ll know I’m real
November 11, 2025 at 8:00 PM
Say something. Anything. I don’t care, even if it’s wishing me to be dead. Look at me, let me know I’m real. Even if you say the most hateful things I’ll know I’m real
Why did you stop loving me
November 11, 2025 at 7:55 PM
Why did you stop loving me
Why’d I trust you when you said you’d stay.
Why’d I trust anyone.
Nobody stays.
Why’d I trust anyone.
Nobody stays.
November 11, 2025 at 7:46 PM
Why’d I trust you when you said you’d stay.
Why’d I trust anyone.
Nobody stays.
Why’d I trust anyone.
Nobody stays.
You’re not gonna look. I know. I know I’m just screaming into the void. It’s better than my head though.
November 11, 2025 at 7:40 PM
You’re not gonna look. I know. I know I’m just screaming into the void. It’s better than my head though.
It’s fine. I get it. I served my purpose. I helped you, at least I hope I did. Now that I did, you don’t need me. You never wanted me, you just let me stay til I finished my job. Now that I did you’re leaving. It’s fine, go on. I figured it would happen. It’s ok. It’s my fault anyways.
November 11, 2025 at 7:36 PM
It’s fine. I get it. I served my purpose. I helped you, at least I hope I did. Now that I did, you don’t need me. You never wanted me, you just let me stay til I finished my job. Now that I did you’re leaving. It’s fine, go on. I figured it would happen. It’s ok. It’s my fault anyways.
Why am I acting like you’ll look. You won’t. You won’t. Even if you do you won’t reply.
November 11, 2025 at 7:34 PM
Why am I acting like you’ll look. You won’t. You won’t. Even if you do you won’t reply.
Do you care about me still. Do you still love me. Please. Do you even want me around anymore.
November 11, 2025 at 7:34 PM
Do you care about me still. Do you still love me. Please. Do you even want me around anymore.