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sianita.bsky.social
Sian
@sianita.bsky.social
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I love musical theatre and animals. Very interested in UK and US politics (often despairingly)
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Perfectly written #jameelajamil #substack #eatingdisorders #recovery
So very much chat about “living in the moment” and “talking to your younger self…” but VERY little about looking forward, beyond a five year plan, decades into the future. Why? It’s so important. I only realize this now that I’m old enough to have some significant time to look back on (and judge) my younger years, and honestly, given the opportunity, I would kick 25 year old me, right in the tits. Even 35 year old me has some explaining to do, but in a room with me today, my twenty-something year old self would be unsafe. That woman was trying to kill me. The feeling is now somewhat mutual. She starved me til my bones grew weak. Til my kidney stopped working properly. She damaged my digestive system. My immune system. My teeth. My skin. My brain. She scarred and burned my young body with “sculpting treatments”. She stopped me from sleeping. She made me too tired to shag back when my knees were in their most durable era. She made me self absorbed. She left me behind the other people who developed interests beyond calories and thigh gaps. She hid me from my friends. She hid me from my life. She made me exercise til I would pass out. She is why I don't remember my twenties. She didn’t just roll the dice on my future, she flushed them down the bloody toilet.
February 25, 2025 at 10:10 PM
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November 20, 2024 at 6:06 PM
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To be loved is to be changed
November 19, 2024 at 10:11 PM
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I have a cat who would like to be painted like one of your French girls
A tabby cat is lying on his side showing his belly. He is on an oodie on top of a duvet
November 14, 2024 at 6:40 PM