I'm glad it made sense! Yeah, I think he could never truly acknowledge even to himself that he regretted it, and the ideology and plan he adopted was very mentally self-protective. But the idea of that regret seeping out in him ironically helping ppl is interesting to consider!

I don't know if I have a coherent point but this has just made my brain start to spin a bit

oooh, now you've got me thinking about the Suguru and Yuuji parallels in canon. And how Yuuji feels like he needs to save more people than 'he' killed after Shibuya. And I'm thinking about Suguru, massacring the village, his parents, and continuing to kill 'monkeys' but paradoxically also save them

he's cuuuuuuteee!!