Aye seems like fun, something you'd do yourself, but maybe the weight of all your other responsibilities get in the way? Is that it? Is that what stops you sitting on your hole doing nothing?

The woman is an absolute legend.

Avraham Shalom should have been braver, Wallace Shawn was.

This is from a while ago and a pretty good read on potential directions, neither very pleasant imo...

marshallbrain.com/manna1