about my interests elsewhere cause that makes me smile that’s what I got. It’s just a really bad day that came to ahead and I don’t care I don’t care that I’m venting honestly just can’t care cause the pain is crushing. But I’ll just continue to disassociate and survive.

your already feeling like that and then you see a post like that it’s like ok one more day I gotta make it cause I need to see the little things in life that keep me here. I’m just in so much pain it hasn’t been an easy time and I always fighting a losing battle so I’m just shut down except talking

and find very little in me to care at this point)
It just made me cry so hard. And I was already crying this morning on my floor cause it was a really bad morning and goddammit I need to vent cause I’m drowning so I’m coming here. And I don’t care. I just can’t care I’m too exhausted. And when-

I haven’t been here to check anything but🩷 🫂
At least s2 is distracting me

Even though your fine and you feel like the world is crashing around you sometimes you just have no choice but to let it out because my lungs are burning and this is a small space still rn and I’m like that’s all I got. Just venting it helps. I’m just hurting so bad.

describe it but everyday I’m just treading water. I just feel miserable I feel absolutely miserable and I don’t care anymore I’m tired I’m in a dark room crying and it’s just the time is it. I don’t know what I’m gonna do after April cause that’s the one thing keeping me going. I’m in so much pain.

good again. Thats all

I want a period of time where I feel more relief. And looking back on things hurts so much so I’m kinda not in a good place but I know it won’t last I just I wish to not be in pain. I wish my mind was kinder to me. And I wish I have a period hopefully after the beginning of this week where I feel -

feeling like it’s killing me. I know for me that’s also signs that things are getting better cause it’s me not able to keep it all in like I do all the time. And when it leaks out it’s a chance to let some of that go but it’s also so painful. So I’m just I’m just wanting some relief again.-

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