no wonder it takes me ages to fix those chapters

the fact that the doc with chaps I to X has 110 pages and the one with chaps XI to XX has 157 makes me scared for the next ones ha ha ha

2 months hiatus is a lot, I hope I didn't lose too many readers

if everything goes well i'll be able to update chapter XXI by the end of the month

and its my first job in ireland, like, its like this everywhere? its not like i don't have my fair share of mental distress when it comes to work, i srsly don't want to have paralizing anxiety now

I hate troublesome things ffs

i'll focus on fixing up to chapter X today and then work on the 10 remaining monday... still i hope i manage to write chapter XXI by the end of january
my depression isn't helping and well, nor is my bad focus

no wonder i lost readers, well, idk, i shouldn't think too much about it or i'll get depressed again and fall into a self-pity hole and be unable to write again

the chapters don't have too many mistakes but damn they're long ffs

I'm on chapter 5 out of 20, it might take me more than 5h but I can't give up

may my adhd take a vacation today, amen

that's the whole problem when I write on my phone vs when I write on the pc, if I write on the phone is hard to check my notes, sigh

their different relationships and also how they're all weak for the youngests its so fun to write, i think my fav relationships between them is Nic and Zac, Levi and Mael and Luc and Eryx.

hlwc is relatively censured (not the sides tho) but the second book will be more explicit especially with the violence so I don't think i'll be able to post there, so i'll just post the first and then say ''if u wanna continue reading check on ao3 or webnovel' thx