I need that kind of passion back in me, both figuratively and literally.

I should draw a couple more followups to this.

There's a ton of nasty shit I'd love to say to artists I admire but that same shit would be shocking and appalling to me if someone else said it out loud. I keep to myself as best as I can, no one needs to hear that even when we're on amicable terms and know the kind of dark shit we do.

It's hard to fault them though, when you are the one basically whoring yourself out, for free even. It's not even a matter of consent either, just general abhorrent behavior.