#givememysamsara

Every now and then i think of a story about a baby who knew intimate details about a real pilots plane, and hope that its proof that the end doesnt mean its all over, even if earth may aswell be hell, its my hell and im gonna damn well live in it, thrive in it if i can, because im alive and will.

I hope reincarnation is real, even if my next life is miserable, because atleast it isnt over. I joke abt ending it but i dont think i ever would because the void of nothing is scarier than anything another person could ever do to me. Even if i remember nothing of this life i want to atleast move on

Sorry for sad puppy hours but i think if i dont ramble atleast a little i'll have the evil insomnia again where my chest hurts too much to sleep with anxiety because i could die tommorow and everything would mean nothing, every plan for the future, everything i ever enjoued, every friend i made gone

We dont even know what happens afterwards, i dont think people talk about it enough how scary it is. I wont think, i cant, it'll all be black and your head cant even comprehend that, and if there is any form of afterwards, why does it have to be unknown thats the worst part. Im not ready for the end

Save it for v ;3

Have you tried not being mean to me >:[