I feel like I'm strikingly & without my consent - in a 'troll phase', performing, shrinking & looking like the absolute worst, most unattractive version of myself I've felt like in a while.

I need to stop panicking & anguishing about the village I once had and just find more & move on.

Feeling pretty unmoored lately

I really appreciate podcasts, but I've had to actively choose music at the start of my day to help me thru 'quieting' my brain & motivating my body thru all the cognitive dissonance we are forced to endure & I'll admit that it really has helped. Thanks, artists. All of them.

I miss being pretty & young and I'm only 43.

I can't really stop sighing

My mom was telling me about how 'some old man' was flirting with her on an elevator, noting he "must've been like, 85!" & I had to remind her that she's 78 and that it was totally age-appropriate. "Oh! Ha! He must have been 89 or something, then!"

If ever something was just super consistent in my life, it's that I do NOT photograph well.

Pen to paper - setting myself up for failure with insomnia, sustained & mean

I love so much that 'imposter syndrome' has entered the chat & we're losing interest in thinking that we can't.

I'm trying to stay positive. The rebuild after 'all of this' is going to be cool & will truly take everyone. I'm really just scared they'll try and do a weird internet censorship/throttle, next. So, in the interim, while 20+yrs veg, I've developed the appetite & am prepared to eat em'.

I'm getting 'new' teeth next month & my dentist keeps tenderly touching my face after he's completed something, squealing how excited he is for (completing the work) getting my name off his list because it begins with 'A' & he thinks about me/my case basically every day. Me too, buddy?! Wrap it up!

That snow storm aced me & all of S. Ohio, and now I'm sore from shoveling!

Admittedly excited for a possible snow storm & that's not my energy

Doing some dishes before sunrise🕯️- I've slept more in the last two days than I have in the last 3ish months? & I'm feeling very rested & grateful, rn ✨

My family FaceTimed me from my dad's tablet to say Happy Tgiving since we missed it, but the bluetooth was connected to his hearing aid, my mom was shouting & no one else could hear me but him. 💕

'twitter' just showed me my 15 year anniversary & I hopped over & signed up here. Hoping for the best!