If I go in there and they say I'm fine, I might show up on a list. I'm not fineeeee.

Being an otherwise healthy(?) adult who has never had to navigate this is so frustrating. When I get blood work done, it's mostly normal with one or two outliers. Like, my ESR is high? But not extremely high. Not concerningly high. So I'm considered fine. But alas, I'm not fine.

Men have just been pissing me off lately and I don't date women much because it's just.. harder? Being with men is *easier* but less satisfying. Overall, I feel like I vibe with absolutely no one. Romance feels overwhelming AND underwhelming.

I'm bi. For certain. Not by choice.
I'm attracted to men visually and I enjoy sex with men (sometimes). I'm attracted to women visually and enjoy sex with women (sometimes).
Romantically, I don't know that I have strong interests, but I don't feel aromantic. I like romance! But it's just whatever.