I was and still am very disgruntled and just want to be left alone, ignore my posts. Why did she have to fuck up and misread my post now I'm like spiraling back into old delusions I was done with :/ My mind just kind of bombards me in an overwhelming way and I'm just doing damage control all day

I'm trying okay this is hard. I'm kind of socially blind so I'm feeling manipulated but ig that's my problem. Sapphic mindbreak palace and later The Oldest House were like my little safe havens from the emotional abuse of a bipolar narcissist :/ (nieves)

I had no idea what the date to come back was and had to add "proxies" in order to contact y'all because how the fuck else would I have contacted the mod team?? I waited for like an extra 2-3 months waiting to be contacted before I finally got ahold of someone to figure out what was going on

Since Cass is apparently a "polymath genius" why did she act like a drunk 12 year old? I can't even believe you're my age?? I didn't even notice this person because I assumed she was an actual child and that caused me to think everyone in the server was a child?

I had been sober for months and was on a steep uphill climb back to recovery and you fucked that up for me so fuck you 🖕🖕🖕 None of what was even brought up in "mediation" was after already sobering up, so that whole thing was poorly judged and poorly timed to the point of it being actually wild

Liara could have been saved from couch hopping with sketchy ppl, if I had known what she was going through I'd have housed her for free

Who's posting this gif at who now? I was bipolar which turned into being schizoaffective and I was so clear about wanting to be left alone and felt harassed which was apt (many others noticed this btw including beezlebird). I couldn't even go to the support channel to get away from y'all 🙄☕️

I originally wasn't calling this kid a narcissist just because I thought she was like an entire decade younger 🙄 okay if you're literally my same age why are you acting like you're 12 years old??

You see me being crazy on social media, yeah everyone can see this, it's on the open fucking internet, if something retarded flies out of my mouth because the filter is so delayed that it lacks immediate control based on whatever state I'm in, I'm completely vulnerable to being dogpiled rn congrats

You must've been behind Pet, she got extremely fucked to me and lied to the mod team that I said "I'm just like that and I have no intention of changing" bruh nah I said I'm a lost puppy and begged to be let back in so I could have relief from being mentally unwell in public where I'm vulnerable 🙄

I was literally told various dates and had no communication or any idea of what was correct. In the future, if someone's totally blindsided you have to give them a chance to add their entire social support network and found family, especially if they're an isolated mentally unwell person

Were you the one that came up with the entire concept of talking to "proxies" Okay since you're such a smart polymath, if I had no mods or anyone in the fucking server added, how the fuck was I supposed to contact anyone when I thought I was like 2-3 months past the original set date to come back???

Maybe I should've used pluralkit and made myself a system to be left alone but my autism wouldn't let me do social engineering/deception like that, I'm not that cowardly. I'm too aware of how the brain converges in the exact same way the science community works, there can be internal disagreements

I'm now forced to post all schizoaffective crap publicly where I can be attacked and harassed, so I don't want you to have a moment of peace either especially if you're a decade older than I thought, you're a miserable narcissist and I'm very good with narcissists at this point so let's fucking gooo