Shailene
@shailenewudley.bsky.social
Here for my personal digital diary. Ignore the long, boring threads and just scroll. Rahzie👌🏻
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Shailene
@shailenewudley.bsky.social
· Sep 20
Reminder:-
1. Don't be serba slh kalau tk msk utk ayah bcs he will not appreciate and complain everything you cook/do.
2. Don't be too kind to bdk 3 bcs she ALWAYS pndg rendah on you. (don't forget what she did too).
3. Don't curhat to anyone everything! They don't care at all tbh. Esp bdk 3&4.
1. Don't be serba slh kalau tk msk utk ayah bcs he will not appreciate and complain everything you cook/do.
2. Don't be too kind to bdk 3 bcs she ALWAYS pndg rendah on you. (don't forget what she did too).
3. Don't curhat to anyone everything! They don't care at all tbh. Esp bdk 3&4.
I can’t help but missing him.
November 16, 2025 at 12:27 PM
I can’t help but missing him.
Its been 5 days tk bckp dgn bdk 3. Ahh bia la dia. Hidup aku bjln je spt biasa. Lagi tenang tk bckp dgn dia. Tk kene mrh, tk skit hati. Bia la masa yg menentukan bila aku akn bbaik dgn dia smula. Maleh aku nk pkr nk mntk maaf ke ape ke. Thats not my style. Ego? Sure thing. The question; slh aku ke?
October 31, 2025 at 3:30 PM
Its been 5 days tk bckp dgn bdk 3. Ahh bia la dia. Hidup aku bjln je spt biasa. Lagi tenang tk bckp dgn dia. Tk kene mrh, tk skit hati. Bia la masa yg menentukan bila aku akn bbaik dgn dia smula. Maleh aku nk pkr nk mntk maaf ke ape ke. Thats not my style. Ego? Sure thing. The question; slh aku ke?
I will try to change myself.
1. Diam kalau ayah marah2, perli2, bebel2. Jawab dgn tenang and tak emosi.
2. Don’t argue with bdk 3. Let her be. Stick to the plan and Let Allah handle the rest.
3. Jangan tinggal ibdh wajib, rajin bt ibadah sunat, doakan selalu for palestine - the end is near.
1. Diam kalau ayah marah2, perli2, bebel2. Jawab dgn tenang and tak emosi.
2. Don’t argue with bdk 3. Let her be. Stick to the plan and Let Allah handle the rest.
3. Jangan tinggal ibdh wajib, rajin bt ibadah sunat, doakan selalu for palestine - the end is near.
October 25, 2025 at 5:01 PM
I will try to change myself.
1. Diam kalau ayah marah2, perli2, bebel2. Jawab dgn tenang and tak emosi.
2. Don’t argue with bdk 3. Let her be. Stick to the plan and Let Allah handle the rest.
3. Jangan tinggal ibdh wajib, rajin bt ibadah sunat, doakan selalu for palestine - the end is near.
1. Diam kalau ayah marah2, perli2, bebel2. Jawab dgn tenang and tak emosi.
2. Don’t argue with bdk 3. Let her be. Stick to the plan and Let Allah handle the rest.
3. Jangan tinggal ibdh wajib, rajin bt ibadah sunat, doakan selalu for palestine - the end is near.
Alhamdulillah for the reminder, Allah 🥹. Kalau tk tu mmg tk teringat nk solat. Ada bgusnye jgk borak psl masjidil aqsa tu. Alhamdulillah smpt sunat ba’diah and baca quran and al-mulk 🥹.
October 25, 2025 at 4:55 PM
Alhamdulillah for the reminder, Allah 🥹. Kalau tk tu mmg tk teringat nk solat. Ada bgusnye jgk borak psl masjidil aqsa tu. Alhamdulillah smpt sunat ba’diah and baca quran and al-mulk 🥹.
Kdg2 teruk btul rasa. Aku dok focus nk g sarawak lah, bli hp baru lah, nk tkr style fashion lah. Pdhl masjidil aqsa pn dlm emergency situation sbb israhell tgh gali sbb nk cari something bwh dia. Not exactly bwh masjidil aqsa tu but tmpt yg diorg gali tu mcm ad laluan nk g bwh masjid tu.
October 25, 2025 at 4:15 PM
Kdg2 teruk btul rasa. Aku dok focus nk g sarawak lah, bli hp baru lah, nk tkr style fashion lah. Pdhl masjidil aqsa pn dlm emergency situation sbb israhell tgh gali sbb nk cari something bwh dia. Not exactly bwh masjidil aqsa tu but tmpt yg diorg gali tu mcm ad laluan nk g bwh masjid tu.
Ntahla ek. Tadi aku tgg nk mkn kuey tiaw goreng, tiber nmpk bdk 3 kluar bilik air. Tgn dia putih melepak mcm pale gitu. Sblum tu mmg dia mandi lama tk kluar2 blik air. So maybe sbb tu pucat. Aku tgur la ckp ‘uish pucatnya tgn kau’. Very not in a negative way tp dia aggp bnde tu negative.
October 25, 2025 at 3:37 PM
Ntahla ek. Tadi aku tgg nk mkn kuey tiaw goreng, tiber nmpk bdk 3 kluar bilik air. Tgn dia putih melepak mcm pale gitu. Sblum tu mmg dia mandi lama tk kluar2 blik air. So maybe sbb tu pucat. Aku tgur la ckp ‘uish pucatnya tgn kau’. Very not in a negative way tp dia aggp bnde tu negative.
Sedih and kecewa sbb abg maloi tk accept request aku. Dh 3 hari. Tiga hari tu jgk aku rjin bkk ig nk tgk dia approve tk tp tk ad ppe pun. Harini hri ketiga, aku stalk threads dia ad reply baru tk, sekali tu nmpk dia ad reply satu post semalam, which tkkn la dia tk dpt noti aku follow 3 hri lps kan?
September 30, 2025 at 4:36 PM
Sedih and kecewa sbb abg maloi tk accept request aku. Dh 3 hari. Tiga hari tu jgk aku rjin bkk ig nk tgk dia approve tk tp tk ad ppe pun. Harini hri ketiga, aku stalk threads dia ad reply baru tk, sekali tu nmpk dia ad reply satu post semalam, which tkkn la dia tk dpt noti aku follow 3 hri lps kan?
Ahhh theory aku btul. Ap chatgpt ckp pn btul and menjadi! Brt aku stuck dkt 64.25kg. Chat gpt ckp water retention sbb mkn bnde msin. Aku rse logik. Also, instinct aku mengatakan maybe sbb nk period. Sbb 2 hri stuck dkt brt yg sma pdhl deficit bsr.
September 28, 2025 at 5:04 PM
Ahhh theory aku btul. Ap chatgpt ckp pn btul and menjadi! Brt aku stuck dkt 64.25kg. Chat gpt ckp water retention sbb mkn bnde msin. Aku rse logik. Also, instinct aku mengatakan maybe sbb nk period. Sbb 2 hri stuck dkt brt yg sma pdhl deficit bsr.
Update abg maloi: almost 24h dh tp dia still tk approve aku weh. Dia tk on ig ke? Smlm elok je? Pagi tdi aku check ig threads dia elok je ad new reply. 7h ago. Like sejam awl drpd aku request dia tu. Ke dia mmg tknk approve aku? Ke tak sudi?
September 28, 2025 at 4:07 PM
Update abg maloi: almost 24h dh tp dia still tk approve aku weh. Dia tk on ig ke? Smlm elok je? Pagi tdi aku check ig threads dia elok je ad new reply. 7h ago. Like sejam awl drpd aku request dia tu. Ke dia mmg tknk approve aku? Ke tak sudi?
Ok i have to admit, no matter how much I ske dia, there's one thing yg aku tk bbrp nk gmr psl dia which from awl lg aku stalk socmed dia, dia byk ckp psl politik. Ade je nk cri gduh. Its so obv dia sokong madanon and sllu memperlekehkan org pas. But i always let it slide and act like i see nothing.
September 27, 2025 at 5:45 PM
Ok i have to admit, no matter how much I ske dia, there's one thing yg aku tk bbrp nk gmr psl dia which from awl lg aku stalk socmed dia, dia byk ckp psl politik. Ade je nk cri gduh. Its so obv dia sokong madanon and sllu memperlekehkan org pas. But i always let it slide and act like i see nothing.
Disebabkan aku terkesan dgn kata2 sorang pakcik haritu, aku pn carila keje ksg dkt fb grp. Pstu dlm byk2, satu ni je aku perkenan sbb skop keje dia uruskn urusan percetakan. Aku plk ad pglmn, wlpn tk pndi lg nk buat bku skrap, tp lain2 InshaAllah ok. Another skop kne scan parcel. Aku kiv dlu nk pkr.
September 27, 2025 at 5:20 PM
Disebabkan aku terkesan dgn kata2 sorang pakcik haritu, aku pn carila keje ksg dkt fb grp. Pstu dlm byk2, satu ni je aku perkenan sbb skop keje dia uruskn urusan percetakan. Aku plk ad pglmn, wlpn tk pndi lg nk buat bku skrap, tp lain2 InshaAllah ok. Another skop kne scan parcel. Aku kiv dlu nk pkr.
My plan skrg: No carbs/low carbs diet + fasted workout + deficit = maximum fat use.
Boleh mkn bnde mnis, but make sure burn it for bnde yg spttnya. Also, mkn bnd mnis lps dinner. Sbb masetu puasa lama = glycogen depleted. The rest of the day better rely on lemak. Lagi cpt nmpk susut kalau cmtu.
Boleh mkn bnde mnis, but make sure burn it for bnde yg spttnya. Also, mkn bnd mnis lps dinner. Sbb masetu puasa lama = glycogen depleted. The rest of the day better rely on lemak. Lagi cpt nmpk susut kalau cmtu.
September 27, 2025 at 12:05 AM
My plan skrg: No carbs/low carbs diet + fasted workout + deficit = maximum fat use.
Boleh mkn bnde mnis, but make sure burn it for bnde yg spttnya. Also, mkn bnd mnis lps dinner. Sbb masetu puasa lama = glycogen depleted. The rest of the day better rely on lemak. Lagi cpt nmpk susut kalau cmtu.
Boleh mkn bnde mnis, but make sure burn it for bnde yg spttnya. Also, mkn bnd mnis lps dinner. Sbb masetu puasa lama = glycogen depleted. The rest of the day better rely on lemak. Lagi cpt nmpk susut kalau cmtu.
For 4 days since aku start diet hri senin ritu, berat aku elok turun sikit2. Dari 65.1 - 64.7 - 64.5 - 64.25. Msuk hri ke 5 tiba2 mantain 64.25kg. Tye chatgpt smlm knp tk trun, dia ckp sbb probably mkn masin so water retention. Logik je sbb mlm sblum tu mkn nsi goreng kmpung dgn aym goreng.
September 26, 2025 at 11:37 PM
For 4 days since aku start diet hri senin ritu, berat aku elok turun sikit2. Dari 65.1 - 64.7 - 64.5 - 64.25. Msuk hri ke 5 tiba2 mantain 64.25kg. Tye chatgpt smlm knp tk trun, dia ckp sbb probably mkn masin so water retention. Logik je sbb mlm sblum tu mkn nsi goreng kmpung dgn aym goreng.
Reminder:-
1. Don't be serba slh kalau tk msk utk ayah bcs he will not appreciate and complain everything you cook/do.
2. Don't be too kind to bdk 3 bcs she ALWAYS pndg rendah on you. (don't forget what she did too).
3. Don't curhat to anyone everything! They don't care at all tbh. Esp bdk 3&4.
1. Don't be serba slh kalau tk msk utk ayah bcs he will not appreciate and complain everything you cook/do.
2. Don't be too kind to bdk 3 bcs she ALWAYS pndg rendah on you. (don't forget what she did too).
3. Don't curhat to anyone everything! They don't care at all tbh. Esp bdk 3&4.
September 20, 2025 at 5:49 PM
Reminder:-
1. Don't be serba slh kalau tk msk utk ayah bcs he will not appreciate and complain everything you cook/do.
2. Don't be too kind to bdk 3 bcs she ALWAYS pndg rendah on you. (don't forget what she did too).
3. Don't curhat to anyone everything! They don't care at all tbh. Esp bdk 3&4.
1. Don't be serba slh kalau tk msk utk ayah bcs he will not appreciate and complain everything you cook/do.
2. Don't be too kind to bdk 3 bcs she ALWAYS pndg rendah on you. (don't forget what she did too).
3. Don't curhat to anyone everything! They don't care at all tbh. Esp bdk 3&4.
Emotionally unstable atm. Sume bnde nk nangis, nak marah. Check pye check ad lg few days nak period. No wonder. But aku rasa marah aku tu valid. Sume start mse bdk 3 tu suh aku isikn myk kete. Aku msetu dkt bhgian blkg, alsn dia mntk aku sbb aku pling dkt dgn pam. Aku boleh trima lg yg tu.
September 20, 2025 at 4:47 PM
Emotionally unstable atm. Sume bnde nk nangis, nak marah. Check pye check ad lg few days nak period. No wonder. But aku rasa marah aku tu valid. Sume start mse bdk 3 tu suh aku isikn myk kete. Aku msetu dkt bhgian blkg, alsn dia mntk aku sbb aku pling dkt dgn pam. Aku boleh trima lg yg tu.
Oh btw, lama tk update psl abg maloi. Haritu aku rindu. So mcm biasa aku stalk threads dia. Tgk2, dia ad tag acc prmpuan ni dkt satu thread psl brg boleh beli guna duit sara. Aku stalk prmpuan tu, dia ad post psl cri groom stylish area kemaman. Brdbr aku. Abg maloi dgn dia ni ad something ke?
September 18, 2025 at 3:34 PM
Oh btw, lama tk update psl abg maloi. Haritu aku rindu. So mcm biasa aku stalk threads dia. Tgk2, dia ad tag acc prmpuan ni dkt satu thread psl brg boleh beli guna duit sara. Aku stalk prmpuan tu, dia ad post psl cri groom stylish area kemaman. Brdbr aku. Abg maloi dgn dia ni ad something ke?
Sometimes Allah sends random people to give you a reality check and oh boy, it hurts to the core.
September 18, 2025 at 2:15 PM
Sometimes Allah sends random people to give you a reality check and oh boy, it hurts to the core.
Aku ni, mls nak masak sbb aku tau sllunya tk bermakan or habis sbb aku sorg je yg mkn. Bkn skli, dh byk kali jdi cmtu smpi aku ni dh mkn hati nk msk. Bila aku tk msk, semua kecam aku tk msk la, org lain nk mkn apela, duk rumah bt ape smpi tk msk, knp mak yg keje plk kene msk tp bkn aku bla bla bla.
September 10, 2025 at 5:14 PM
Aku ni, mls nak masak sbb aku tau sllunya tk bermakan or habis sbb aku sorg je yg mkn. Bkn skli, dh byk kali jdi cmtu smpi aku ni dh mkn hati nk msk. Bila aku tk msk, semua kecam aku tk msk la, org lain nk mkn apela, duk rumah bt ape smpi tk msk, knp mak yg keje plk kene msk tp bkn aku bla bla bla.
Esk is the day! Why am i excited? Idk. Harap ad yg manis2 but kalau tkde, get ready utk kecewa lah ya aino 🤣. Dh ckp jgn berharap but berharap jgk. Brhrp sgt sllu mmg tk jdi 🤣. Also, hrp tkde ppe yg tk elok berlaku. Hrp prgi and balik ckup sifat 🤲🏼. G gua maloi pn tk excited cmni weh, 🤣 kbye!
August 28, 2025 at 3:51 PM
Esk is the day! Why am i excited? Idk. Harap ad yg manis2 but kalau tkde, get ready utk kecewa lah ya aino 🤣. Dh ckp jgn berharap but berharap jgk. Brhrp sgt sllu mmg tk jdi 🤣. Also, hrp tkde ppe yg tk elok berlaku. Hrp prgi and balik ckup sifat 🤲🏼. G gua maloi pn tk excited cmni weh, 🤣 kbye!
I love this app. I really am. Tkde spe ppl around me yg tau and guna this app bcs this app is like a clone of twitter. So aku boleh ckp apa2 psl sume bnde dkt sini w/out risau spe2 baca. Unless diorg bkk app ni dri hp aku la. Also, i don't need ppl to listen to my story dh. No one can judge.
August 27, 2025 at 5:54 PM
I love this app. I really am. Tkde spe ppl around me yg tau and guna this app bcs this app is like a clone of twitter. So aku boleh ckp apa2 psl sume bnde dkt sini w/out risau spe2 baca. Unless diorg bkk app ni dri hp aku la. Also, i don't need ppl to listen to my story dh. No one can judge.
Tbh aku niat next time bila mairah n ecah ajk g naik taisho, aku plan nk join. But tb2 depa ajk g pnjt bukit lain plk. Aku ni dlm dilemma plk. Tp aku pkr g jelah atas sbb mn tau kot2 trjmp jodoh. But that was sec intention lah. Mcm g gua maloi dlu. Niat asl nk msuk gua je. Jodoh tu sec. So gitula.
August 27, 2025 at 5:37 PM
Tbh aku niat next time bila mairah n ecah ajk g naik taisho, aku plan nk join. But tb2 depa ajk g pnjt bukit lain plk. Aku ni dlm dilemma plk. Tp aku pkr g jelah atas sbb mn tau kot2 trjmp jodoh. But that was sec intention lah. Mcm g gua maloi dlu. Niat asl nk msuk gua je. Jodoh tu sec. So gitula.
Jangkaanku btul la. No wonder brt aku pyh nauzubillah nk trun. Fasa pre period and period mmg cmtu. But i need to learn from the previous. Truskn diet and exercise even scale tk grk pun. The results akn shows after 2-3 days after hbis period. So keep it up, don't give up!
August 24, 2025 at 9:17 PM
Jangkaanku btul la. No wonder brt aku pyh nauzubillah nk trun. Fasa pre period and period mmg cmtu. But i need to learn from the previous. Truskn diet and exercise even scale tk grk pun. The results akn shows after 2-3 days after hbis period. So keep it up, don't give up!
25th August. Tgh2 tido, mmpi nak terberak. Bila tersedar, bru prsn prut sakit sgt2. Sakit dkt bwh prut. Sslu nya tu senggugut. Pastu bgun la g berak kot2 btul lak nk berak kan. Skli tk kluar2 pn berak, leka dek kentut je. Check2, mmg period. Ada drh. Aduh dh 2 kali dh ni senggugut time tgh2 mlm 🥴
August 24, 2025 at 9:10 PM
25th August. Tgh2 tido, mmpi nak terberak. Bila tersedar, bru prsn prut sakit sgt2. Sakit dkt bwh prut. Sslu nya tu senggugut. Pastu bgun la g berak kot2 btul lak nk berak kan. Skli tk kluar2 pn berak, leka dek kentut je. Check2, mmg period. Ada drh. Aduh dh 2 kali dh ni senggugut time tgh2 mlm 🥴
Gurl today i had the most productive day of my entire life. I've done a lot! Briskwalk 2x shri, vakum, sapu & mop lantai, lipat baju, men badminton, teatime, bsuh & ampai baju, msk, netflix! Except bce buku hahahah bru sdr byk sbrnye msa aku ni cuma tk appreciate sbb byk hbskn mse dkt scroll tt je 😂
August 21, 2025 at 5:41 PM
Gurl today i had the most productive day of my entire life. I've done a lot! Briskwalk 2x shri, vakum, sapu & mop lantai, lipat baju, men badminton, teatime, bsuh & ampai baju, msk, netflix! Except bce buku hahahah bru sdr byk sbrnye msa aku ni cuma tk appreciate sbb byk hbskn mse dkt scroll tt je 😂
Starting 2 days ago, hormone nafsu mkn kau tgh kuat sbb dlm fasa pre-period. Brt probably tk turun/mantain. Time period nnt, lagila. Silap2 berat bkn takat tk turun lgsung/mantain tp probably naik! 2-3 hri lps period bru turun. So don't get disappointed and upset. Just keep diet and exercise gurl!
August 20, 2025 at 5:41 PM
Starting 2 days ago, hormone nafsu mkn kau tgh kuat sbb dlm fasa pre-period. Brt probably tk turun/mantain. Time period nnt, lagila. Silap2 berat bkn takat tk turun lgsung/mantain tp probably naik! 2-3 hri lps period bru turun. So don't get disappointed and upset. Just keep diet and exercise gurl!