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@shady-groves.bsky.social
25 || Hobbyist artist + fanfic writer! Day job is attempting to escape the clutches of the corpo cubicle cage
((on socials hiatus - will post stuff occasionally but might not be responsive 🙇♀️))
art tags: #MyTimeAtSandrock | #MyTimeAtEvershine | #OC
((on socials hiatus - will post stuff occasionally but might not be responsive 🙇♀️))
art tags: #MyTimeAtSandrock | #MyTimeAtEvershine | #OC
cloudward ho is legitimate storytelling magic and i love it so much
November 22, 2025 at 1:48 AM
cloudward ho is legitimate storytelling magic and i love it so much
if he really wanted to own wis with FACTS and LOGIC he should've went with the traditional version 齊 with 14 strokes(!!)
November 18, 2025 at 2:22 PM
if he really wanted to own wis with FACTS and LOGIC he should've went with the traditional version 齊 with 14 strokes(!!)
my thought process went like
"qi would be super efficient when he writes up his requests so he'd only sign with his initial” -> "wait but his name is 2 letters long" -> "but wait he'd still totally do that omg" (text in alt)
"qi would be super efficient when he writes up his requests so he'd only sign with his initial” -> "wait but his name is 2 letters long" -> "but wait he'd still totally do that omg" (text in alt)
November 18, 2025 at 2:22 PM
my thought process went like
"qi would be super efficient when he writes up his requests so he'd only sign with his initial” -> "wait but his name is 2 letters long" -> "but wait he'd still totally do that omg" (text in alt)
"qi would be super efficient when he writes up his requests so he'd only sign with his initial” -> "wait but his name is 2 letters long" -> "but wait he'd still totally do that omg" (text in alt)
aster silently roasting their parents like 'i found this place first :]'
November 10, 2025 at 10:27 PM
aster silently roasting their parents like 'i found this place first :]'
inspired by the credit sequence from the talos principle, another post-apocalyptic game that i highly recommend :>
youtu.be/eLB_5Koa-MM?...
youtu.be/eLB_5Koa-MM?...
The Talos Principle - Full Tower Ascension Ending + Credits [1440p 60fps No HUD]
YouTube video by CutEditFusion
youtu.be
November 10, 2025 at 10:21 PM
inspired by the credit sequence from the talos principle, another post-apocalyptic game that i highly recommend :>
youtu.be/eLB_5Koa-MM?...
youtu.be/eLB_5Koa-MM?...
part of my work benefits package includes a handful of free therapy sessions,,,,,might have to get my grubby fingies on that,,,and an adhd diagnostic‼️‼️[/vent]
November 2, 2025 at 5:46 AM
part of my work benefits package includes a handful of free therapy sessions,,,,,might have to get my grubby fingies on that,,,and an adhd diagnostic‼️‼️[/vent]
if you've read this whole thing, thank you. if any of this makes you think lesser of me, all i can say is i understand. if this is where we part ways, then i hope that we'll meet again when i've got a better me to meet you with.
November 2, 2025 at 5:46 AM
if you've read this whole thing, thank you. if any of this makes you think lesser of me, all i can say is i understand. if this is where we part ways, then i hope that we'll meet again when i've got a better me to meet you with.
to my discord friends, this is part of why i haven't been active lately. it's a mix of things, but this is probably the most persistent one. i don't exactly know if/when i'll come back, but know that i do miss you and our shenanigans 💖
November 2, 2025 at 5:46 AM
to my discord friends, this is part of why i haven't been active lately. it's a mix of things, but this is probably the most persistent one. i don't exactly know if/when i'll come back, but know that i do miss you and our shenanigans 💖
maybe it'll be best going forward if i start laying out timeboxes for designated Writing/Art Objectives(tm) so it's easier to manage and balance than stopping and starting projects on a whim
November 2, 2025 at 5:46 AM
maybe it'll be best going forward if i start laying out timeboxes for designated Writing/Art Objectives(tm) so it's easier to manage and balance than stopping and starting projects on a whim
the best thing i think i can do atm aside from getting proper professional help is to just...keep going? and apologize to everyone if i ever came/come across as ungrateful or selfish.
November 2, 2025 at 5:46 AM
the best thing i think i can do atm aside from getting proper professional help is to just...keep going? and apologize to everyone if i ever came/come across as ungrateful or selfish.
fortunately, i DO care a lot about my own work, so i'm at least able to power through that sticking point at least a little better than the others 😂
November 2, 2025 at 5:46 AM
fortunately, i DO care a lot about my own work, so i'm at least able to power through that sticking point at least a little better than the others 😂
there's also a time factor with fandom too. no one can guarantee how long they'll be interested in something, and sometimes it feels like by the time i finish my larger projects, no one but me will care anymore.
November 2, 2025 at 5:46 AM
there's also a time factor with fandom too. no one can guarantee how long they'll be interested in something, and sometimes it feels like by the time i finish my larger projects, no one but me will care anymore.
i've also never really made anything or interacted with fandom to the extent that i do now. the dopamine of fandom interaction is real, but damn does it have some nasty withdrawal...
November 2, 2025 at 5:46 AM
i've also never really made anything or interacted with fandom to the extent that i do now. the dopamine of fandom interaction is real, but damn does it have some nasty withdrawal...
i think it's really an online/fandom thing. i don't feel like this with my irl friends and colleagues. part of it is bc i see them face to face, talk with them on the regular, and they don't run in fandom circles that much like i do.
November 2, 2025 at 5:46 AM
i think it's really an online/fandom thing. i don't feel like this with my irl friends and colleagues. part of it is bc i see them face to face, talk with them on the regular, and they don't run in fandom circles that much like i do.
which feeling came first? eh, chicken or egg, they're more or less the same thing. i've developed an unhealthy standard by which i want to be acknowledged and so that leads me to project that standard onto how i think others see me.
November 2, 2025 at 5:46 AM
which feeling came first? eh, chicken or egg, they're more or less the same thing. i've developed an unhealthy standard by which i want to be acknowledged and so that leads me to project that standard onto how i think others see me.
...that i'm only interested in some people's work/characters/etc over others. and so that paralysis just makes me end up doing nothing at all.
November 2, 2025 at 5:46 AM
...that i'm only interested in some people's work/characters/etc over others. and so that paralysis just makes me end up doing nothing at all.
another fold to that is that if i have an idea of something i want to do for someone, i'm afraid that someone else will look from the sidelines and feel the same way about me that i feel about other people at my worst/most paranoid...
November 2, 2025 at 5:46 AM
another fold to that is that if i have an idea of something i want to do for someone, i'm afraid that someone else will look from the sidelines and feel the same way about me that i feel about other people at my worst/most paranoid...
i might eventually get around to it, but by that point, will it have been long enough for it to feel like an obligatory repayment lazily done?
November 2, 2025 at 5:46 AM
i might eventually get around to it, but by that point, will it have been long enough for it to feel like an obligatory repayment lazily done?
so even if somebody takes the time to draw/write something for me (which many people have, and i'm infinitely grateful for!), i hardly have any way of repaying the favor. and so (at least from my limited pov), it makes it less enjoyable to keep talking to/doing things for me.
November 2, 2025 at 5:46 AM
so even if somebody takes the time to draw/write something for me (which many people have, and i'm infinitely grateful for!), i hardly have any way of repaying the favor. and so (at least from my limited pov), it makes it less enjoyable to keep talking to/doing things for me.
it'll take me at least another couple years to be able to make any gift in a timely manner in addition to my own works that's actually neat and presentable. good or fast - i can't do both for anything other than negligible doodles.
November 2, 2025 at 5:46 AM
it'll take me at least another couple years to be able to make any gift in a timely manner in addition to my own works that's actually neat and presentable. good or fast - i can't do both for anything other than negligible doodles.
part of it is that i hardly have the skill or energy to do anything for anyone in addition to the work that i want to do for myself. i'm a slow artist with moderate experience and a slow writer, while some of my friends have been doing this so long that it's almost natural for them
November 2, 2025 at 5:46 AM
part of it is that i hardly have the skill or energy to do anything for anyone in addition to the work that i want to do for myself. i'm a slow artist with moderate experience and a slow writer, while some of my friends have been doing this so long that it's almost natural for them