Huffff noted ;3

Hehee when and where ;3c

Huffff absolutely got stuff~

And I wanna say thanks to anyone who reads this whole thing. Its a lot and typing out my thoughts help

I know I've said a lot, but it feels like there's so much more to say. Lots to reflect on, things to take care of, people who I still care deeply for, but no way out in the end of it.

Gonna keep this on my page to look back on here and there, that way if anything changes, I know when shit was bad.

Heck, ever since loosing my mom last year its been downhill. I don't have that stable person in my life who has always been there to talk to, or to talk about the deep things with. Everytime I talk like that with anyone, I end up getting hurt.

Things tend to look up for a weekend or two when good times arrive, but the quickly leave. I'm no longer who I used to be at this point, and its been pointed out and I have noticed it as well. I just want to break free from these chains, but it feels like I have a long way to go before that happens.

I just can't comprehend everything that is going on this year. Its just knocking me off my feet. Talking about things helps only for a day then its all back to how it was the day before. I've tried therapy, and it did fuck all for me. Pushing through is about the only thing I have going for me now.

People who call themselves my friend doing things that they have no idea the damage from it. And to end it all, getting my hopes up for someone who I have wanted to see and meet for over 2 years, just disappearing and forgetting about me.

Extra cummy version as well ;3

Photo by @eclipse.mow.cat

Was such a good time cutie ;3