Another thing I believe is that if we are still alive, there must be hope and some reason to be, because it's very easy for God to take us from this earth when we are no longer useful in His grand plan, whatever that may be. I sincerely hope that you find joy in life again as soon as possible.

I'm sad to hear that, especially because I sometimes feel that way too, but I have the support of my parents in my life, which is what keeps me from making mistakes.