really leaning into one direction music for comfort too. it’s absolutely working. after all this time they can still soothe my harsh emotions towards myself. i will always love and cherish the safety they have provided for me

trying to eat better and be more intentional while walking my dog. trying to separate my rsd brain from my other thoughts and feelings. i’ll get through it again, but part of these things remain even when i’m not triggered. they’re just easier to manage

that it was triggered by my rsd. it makes me feel so fucking dramatic and like i’m victimizing myself which is pathetic that sometimes i can’t handle conflict without spiraling

my rsd has been badly triggered and i haven’t felt this need to disappear and isolate from everyone so strongly in quite some time. locked into still caring for myself through it and that’s all i can do. hoping to avoid a major spiral into depression. it will just make me feel more shitty knowing

i yearn for friends expressing things they love about me. as we’ve gotten older those moments have become more rare and asking for validation feels more like a burden than genuine acceptance and appreciation

and then i have to try to figure out if my brain is lying or if i need to figure out how to change it…obviously leading to attempts to withdrawal socially

most prewashed ones are the ones that end up getting recalled. just wash any and all to be safe.