Disability from mental illness is barely half the minimum wage lmao.

Maybe if I stopped comming artists and unsigned from everything on Patreon etc

But those aren’t happening lol.

Gladly ^_^

Odds are by the time I’d have everything ready, even assuming me nerves hold, the next one will have probably came and went. But hey, it’s nice to dream, and never say never.

And that’s assuming I’d even get laid, though honestly I’m at the point where it’s mostly stopped bothering me (and thank fuck, no one wants a desperate needy bitch lmao)

It happens? Awesome! It doesn’t? That’s fine too!

Would still be an absolute wild change of pace for me.

Plus If I were to go should probably get some extra stuff done like a STD test for example (yeah, I’m a virgin, but it’s important to remain safe, and to make sure I can’t spread something I might have instead of just blindly assume that it’s not a concern because I’m a virgin)

Hmmm looking back I think my prices were assuming I would go by taxi. No idea why. Train seems a lot cheaper. IDK I’ll need to think about this more.

And as embarrassing as it is for a 27 year old, never done any of this before either so my anxiety would spike like crazy

Anxiety disorders are a very nasty bitch.

Thooough I do have lube and disposable gloves (ass safe don’t worry :P)

Might have to wait until tomorrow night though…

Ugghh I really need a fat cock shoved up my ass