YOU CAN'T RUN FOREVER

I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE TOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

YOU WILL DO NO SUCH THING THERE IS NO WAR IN BA SING SE

I disagree I think it's gorgeous ❤️

Okay, rant over, sorry for the heavy subject, it just sucks. I'm made to feel bad for not wanting to spend time with her, meanwhile I get to listen to her imply over and over that I'm faking my life experience. I didn't spend years overcoming denial to be told the denial was right >_>

I recognize that she is not going to directly cause me specifically any explicit physical or verbal harm.

I recognize that's what she means when she says I "can feel safe around her."

But when you're implying that you think trans women are "fellas who go by she" what am I supposed to do with that?

"But I still love you and I'm just trying to understand" yeah and when I try to explain "these people are women, full stop" you still won't even accept that on a surface level, you still have to rationalize it as we're all crossdressing dudes.

So no, grandmother, I don't feel very safe around you.

-a fella that calls himself she, or like a girl?" And I looked at her feeling VERY awkward and weird and just told her I was referring to a woman and left it at that.

This is how the conversation went. A whole bunch of subtle cues that told me she wasn't accepting AT ALL.

-trying to understand in any serious way. At one point she tried to imply I was a crossdresser, which immediately felt a little insulting. I later referred to a friend as "she" - in a completely unrelated conversation, mind - and she deadass asked me "now when you say she, do you mean-

She seemed like maybe I was wrong and she was more accepting than I was expecting.

Well I recently ended up going on a road trip with her, and she was asking about how this whole "being trans" thing worked. I was hesitant to try to explain, but I did my best, and... don't think she was really-

The good news is, when I did finally come out to her (against my will, someone else told her for me >_>) she was primarily concerned with letting me know I'm "safe" around her and she'll love me no matter what.

Okay. Good start. Things seemed to be going okay in the beginning...

I'll admit, I kind of avoided her for a while because I was afraid she wouldn't be at all accepting. I had learned in my adult life that she has some... let's say disturbing views about certain aspects of life. Stuff that does not instill confidence.

Well there's good news and bad news...