SO much racism from white people in my life, many of them loved ones. White people will REALLY say some shit when they think they’re in “safe” company. If you recognize it & don’t see the error & you don’t change it, NOW you’re an asshole. Stop avoiding reality, be honest, & do better. 🤦🏻‍♀️

(from their perspective), so there really is no winning. Don’t act dramatic & also if your words sound dramatic to me then you’re probably lying. But the idea that you’re suffering in exactly the way it seems or as you say is definitely not one of the possibilities. Sigh.

check your privilege

supposed to like…not feel like this, & be scared, & angry.

this stuff. I have gone through periods where I have learned to manage it much better, but the reason it keeps getting re-triggered to such a degree is that things keep happening that scare the fuck out of me & at this point, it feels like we’ve turned a (really bad) corner. I’m not sure how I’m

not a perfect system (mine), but it is what is happening. I understand that it’s not healthy to let things consume you, especially when they are bad & scary, but I am a person who has a strong need to be aware of things & to never lose sight of reality. The way my brain works will not let me ignore