If I mention I’m struggling that should be enough smh

To be fair though
1) In my head I was suffering 24/7 so in my mind I thought it was super clear, when in reality I was very very good at masking because I didn’t wanna bring people’s moods down or drive them away from me
2) I shouldn’t have to “perform” being in distress wtf

“Why is nobody checking in on meeee?”
Because in between your posts of distress you look like you’re a ray of sunshine you DIPSHIT
Oh my God

/I/ lack self-awareness AUGH

Sometimes anxiety is your body telling you “no” and there should be no shame in respecting that. There shouldn’t be any shame in respecting your body’s refusal to relive dangerous memories, especially if it’s not ready or not able to process it properly.

This is a years-long thing, too. I’ve forced myself into situations that have terrified me & rarely was I allowed to say “no”
All it taught me was to never trust my own feelings (because my feelings were always “wrong”) & to not have boundaries with myself. It’s unhealthy & horrid.

I’ll sit there & do my absolute best to walk myself through my uncomfortable feelings:
-I’ll do an internal dialogue of identifying what I feel, why I feel that way, & telling myself it’ll pass (it won’t)
-I’ll do deep breaths
-I’ll stop myself from compulsions that just causes me to cycle

Nope.

He was ONE OF them, but still…

Dw things are beginning to look up- I just came to the sick realization of just how bad the abuse had to be for me to be that avoidant of my family lol

You’re so right though… I wish there was a way for kind souls to meet other kind souls 🥲 I want peace, not another life lesson

Meanwhile- y’all I’m TRANSITIONING LIKE 4 MEDICATIONS & I’M GOING THROUGH INSANE MENTAL HEALTH PROCESSING, can Y’ALL SHUT THE FUCK UPPP??? Holy fuck I just wanna recover. I JUST got out of violently dissociating for weeks on end, please don’t make me mentally check out again.

I’ve been calling my leave specialist, HIS LINE ALWAYS GOES TO VM, & when I leave a VM HE DOESN’T CALL BACK….. So I had no choice but to call the regular reps & ask for a supervisor because I NEED TO KNOW if I’m returning to work or not

Insurance wants me to try this other BC that most likely will not work & put my mental health at severe risk for the sake of allowing me access.

Oh, I got approved for leave for the next 3 months? Nahhh the company that manages my time off said “we give you 1 month & we need paperwork.” Ok…