bro it’s a little cold out here

that's a good cat

they have their occasions if there’s cocktail sauce or a lot of butter or seasoning

that's a good feeling

him? well he just smiles and nods and is none the wiser to the consequences. doesn't mean he's a bad person. doesn't mean he's inconsiderate of others either (typically) either. he's a really reasonable guy. but what it does mean is he is not aware of his own capabilities or boundaries.

But that resulted out of a desire to be closer to this person and being walled out after being led on. I have despondent for the past two years and am so sad and angry about how i've been treated and about how this relationship has gone that it's impacted every aspect of my life.

I genuinely think the only reason I've been placated by this person repeatedly over the past 6-8 months is because I run groupchats that are used widely in the area and they don't want to be kicked out of those. They've been motivated by fear.

I tolerated so much from them. I got told I was an option. Something they didn't "want to pass up on" but I wasn't ever loved because THEY loved me. I was kept around because I was high value on the market if you will. Because I was attractive. Not because I was loved.

feel so incredibly discarded. It's crazy how someone you once looked at so fondly can get to this point.

I couldn't be near them at a party last night. I had to leave early. I felt like I could barely look at them and they could barely look at me. Two years ago we were spending every single day together. Cooking together 4 times a week. I literally thought I could build a life with this person and I