anyways! still, this is an overall positive for us rn and we're excited to be moving into a new place that won't have the bugs and mice that this house does :D
plus we're excited to do things™ again >:3

that's all for now, thanks for reading!! ❤️
- Dusk

but, that's just something that we're going to have to work towards, especially since it requires having an income and that's still the biggest hurdle right now 😅

we're hoping that moving into a cleaner home with no history to it will help us feel better, but we'll have to see how it plays out ^^;

living with family that caused a ton of the trauma and neglect that led to us developing c-ptsd is still hard for us, even though we've had good news to share. it's still 100x better than living with our ex, but it does weigh on us pretty heavily. we still want to get out of here eventually

on the topic of health actually: we've been struggling mainly with our fatigue as of late. it kinda feels like we're in a neverending crash, and everything feels really hard and really exhausting

we've been reading a book about c-ptsd though, and i think we might actually be in a flashback :'3

- related to that: we're planning to stream again once we're moved into the new place, which will hopefully be around the start of next year

- we're still struggling a lot with financial stuff and health issues tbh, but we still really wanna do creative things again <3 we miss it so much

gonna make another thread with some more updates in a sec but wanted to post the doodle uwu

we've had the new phone for about a week now and honestly it's pretty nice? we've been avoiding pixels cuz of knowing how bad they are to repair, but the actual phone itself isn't so bad. plus it's nice to no longer be trapped on Android 9 lol (this phone comes with Android 16, for reference)

we don't have a pressure sensitive stylus with this phone (it's a pixel, so we just have a rubber tip stylus) so it's a little weird to draw with, but i think we could get used to it <3

but also, since we got to keep our galaxy note 8, we can still draw with that as well (which DOES have a stylus)

Please see this post for more info about our current situation: bsky.app/profile/grey...

Addendum: we'll be leaving the GFM up and will still be accepting donations from anyone wanting to chuck a few bucks our way- we don't want to permanently live with family and we'd still like to move out when we get the chance. Every little bit helps us to do that ❤️

But yeah, just wanted to talk about it here. It's been so exhausting being in this relationship and I'm so, so glad we're getting out of it. The fact that she has shown how little she cares and how little she wants to change speaks volumes about her. I'm glad to be rid of that soon.

- Dusk

She isn't kicking us out, to be clear. We decided to open the conversation about getting us back to Michigan during that blow up. It's our decision and we're glad to be doing it, even if we might get worse for a bit because of it. Ultimately I think this will be better for us and our well-being.

In a lot of ways it was cathartic, but in a lot of ways it was like trying to tear down a brick wall that just keeps rebuilding itself. Hey acknowledgements of wrongdoing are hollow. She doesn't care enough to make an effort to change, despite expecting change from us. It's rage-inducing.

But the fact that she expected us to "get better" while completely and blatantly refusing to do any of the things that we asked of her- while taking her anger out on us, while refusing to communicate, while disrespecting our needs... yeah, I couldn't keep my mouth shut anymore. I yelled. I swore.

We don't believe in a timeline for healing. We don't believe in pacing ourselves for others' comfort or desires. We don't believe that we CAN, nor SHOULD, meet someone else's expectations for getting better. And we never expect those things from anyone else either.