I'm working on something!!! but my irl work keeps getting in the way 😓 So I've been haunted by panels floating around my head for days now. I can't believe I need to actually sit down and draw them and I can't just send them telepathically.

That's such a delicate craft. I have so much respect and love for fanfic writers. You're the backbone of fandom. You're the reminder of everything good amidst all my societal woes. You're the balm to every soul in need of perverted art and honest expression.

When thinking about the seme, I'm always battling the question "But....would they???"

kyst was almost in that zone for me too. especially that one art gallery illustration that wym-sensei drew. the one where satomi is the painting. I took it as
"look but don't touch" even though I want to make a joke about "exhibition" kink. lmao.

give me all the really weird ways kyouji might say "I'm mad because I care for you." and all the psychosexual ways Satomi would normalize it in his head to receive them, because... he's his older male figure? because...he's kyouji? kyosato relationship is so bizzare.

and it changed my brain chemistry. I like Satomi with a temper, bit of a mouth, and the logical conclusion of what "scolding" means when this pair is dripping with eroticism.
yeah i think it'd take a lot for kyouji to really go that far but also imagining a little mutual play between them is fun

*chanting from the rooftops* BOTTOMS WHO PURSUE!! BOTTOMS WHO PURSUE!!

Anyways. Satomi needs to hear about if you'd be happy to be with him. it's just. aghhhh. aghhhh. Satomi. He loves you. He's happy just by spoiling you. His boss has his cats, and now you're his cat.

Sometimes you gotta drop words like "when is your boss gonna die" to make a man know you're forreal about your 💍 vows 💍

But he's got that dazed look, and the response he gives afterwards, is giving big "I wonder if he'd actually accept me for the man I am, and I wouldn't want you to either. But i'll be here as long as it makes you happy." Like, I wonder if he's taking his words seriously.

Many thoughts about what kyouji's gonna do when his boss dies. (Reporting to an 18yo instead of a ykzhead is a promotion. To my fujo eyes.)
I bet kyouji loved hearing that "forever" line...hearing satomi speak from his heart like that.

but when it comes to being completely earnest about his desires to be with satomi, he's so careful about it. (understandably) he says only what he feels like he's allowed to say. i would curl up in the bathroom too.

it's crazy because he can easily say things like "haha...if i lose next time i think i'd get your face tattooed on me next 😉" (because we have both established that I'll get a tattoo of something I like)