#doxylifts #tmi im certain im prob clenching some other muscle than my vag but unfortunately it’s a bit like wiggling your ears right now where if someone tried to correct me like no move this bit i wouldn’t be able to perceive it and would just clench the wrong thing again

#doxylifts like it’s remembering it all and also coordinating all 3 things so they happen at the right time too 😐

i still exist so may as well do some shit bc that feels better than not doing anything

and sometimes it feels better to just accept it in the moment instead of fight with myself lol. like “OK. i’m a failure. time to get on with my day”

when to you it’s just a truth

it’s additionally isolating bc most people don’t feel this way in response to setbacks, so if you voice anything like this about yourself they’re just uncomfortable, or assume nobody could possibly feel like that about themselves so you must be making it up for attention or something

like i /am/ better after therapy and i can at least recognize that they’re thought distortions, but i still can’t escape them. i’m just going to be trapped with them forever. i’ll be on my deathbed still thinking shit like this

or maybe he just meant editors vs journalists/writers.

it's just as well bc we wouldn't have been able to find career ppl in our field who'd want to freelance for us lol

#doxyspawn but yeah this typical misogynist attitude blows. like a soon as you become preg you’re no longer a person just Baby Vessel and many drs will just prioritize bby’s health but not yours

#doxyspawn and the (male) dr was like well you can’t just think about you anymore :)

she immediately stood up, left his room and went into another preg specialist dr room lmao

#doxyspawn #gross
L: i should put lotion or gelatin in it and leave it around when we have company
Me: no, you should make gelatin in it, then casually start eating from it when we have company
L: oh GOD

#doxyspawn or like he might have guessed already lol. like what else could a married AFAB person be doing when i'm clearly not suffering any health ailments

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