说到底没人在乎我吧，就连那些我视作是朋友的人其实也没有把我当做是朋友吧

其实大家也不是很喜欢我的画吧。
毕竟我的画这么难看，平庸，无聊。比我画得好的人很多很多很多很多很多。不看我的画，你们还有其他人的作品可以看。我的画作根本没有价值吧。就算我做成制品了也不会有人要。就算送给别人，别人也会嫌弃吧。
我所有的一切都糟糕透顶一塌糊涂。
我好想好想变得很好啊，我做不到我做不到我做不到

To tell the truth, I'm really not good at learning.Every time I can only learn a little, or even nothing.And I can't apply what I've learned to my paintings.I can only try and hold on...

it seems strange but I just can't help putting myself down.I don't know what is good enough.For me I'll never be good enough.I can't judge myself so I wait other people to judge.But I always doubt😔I can't control myself

Thank you.In fact I've been learning from videos.I hope I can make progresses faster and faster.But I can't be confident and passionate all the time.

我不知道，我不知道，我不知道
我想要不顾一切地前进，可是我做不到

thanks for your suggestion.💖
I do feel hard to change,because I'm always worried about that if I study from someone,I'll lose my own style.I don't want to be like everyone else😔At least let me prove I'm me.Also,I'm not smart, sometimes I just can't understand and learn from people

I'll try the exercises you said. I'm not good with shapes, outlines and characters' poses,really
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Thank you so much again
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（I don't know if I managed to send a comment, so I sent it again, and don't be surprised if you got both）