Diapers not fitting under my jeans is a problem when I've been back in them full time for near 2 years. I've just gotten by with shorts, shortalls and my black work pants (surprisingly roomy bottom) but want something warm for winter that I enjoy wearing.

I have a fear of representing our being judged for something, so all my clothes have been generic. Solid color, uniform texture or pattern. No logos, designs or graphics. They might not always be what I imagine I want, but I don't get anxious about wearing them.

Super cozy! Soft blankets must make it hard to get up in the morning. 😊

Didn't French toast sticks solve this? Jus make the pancake dippable size and have a lil cup of syrup. Cute tiny finger foods with minimal messy, basically holding a warm tortilla.

I have to be so careful about how I do the tapes. Tops as snug as I can, the less movement the less irritation overall. Inner thigh/leg is extremely sensitive, so too tight and I'll get tender inflamed skin. How high you have the front relative to the back helps adjust the placement of the tapes.

You know you need to escape but you don't know how.

You look around more closely and start to notice the same inconsistencies, the same hallucinations, that the gifts you were getting had recently. The nursery is like everything you've ever wanted, but created by an AI that has a feedback loop, creating stranger things with each iteration.

It's up, what looks like a hundred feet, above the pile of plushes in the corner of the nursery. You don't know how you'd ever be able to get up that high to escape. As you ponder you're picked right back up, with a soft crinkle, and carried by the plush back to the high chair.

There another large plush bear waits for you, diaper somehow held by it's round featureless paw. It doesn't seem to matter that they don't have fingers of any kind, they're still able to swiftly undress you and tape a diaper around your waist. As you lay you can see the doorway you fell through.

They're warm and soft, but you're a little frightened how easily they could pick you up. Sure, this nursery is exactly everything you've wanted, but, from your now higher vantage point, you can see there aren't any doors or windows. You see you're being carried to the change table.

Slowly you crawl towards the little bit of light you can see above you and you emerge from a large pile of plushes. Taking a look around, you're in a massive nursery with everything large and towering over you. As you're admiring the crib and high chair you're picked up by a large plush bear.

One day as you walk past the stairs the small little door is open and light is shining out from it. You get down on the floor and crawl over to look in and just as you cross the threshold you suddenly fall in and go tumbling down. You land in a soft mass that crinkles and jingles as you move.

But you don't give it much thought, not everything can be perfect every time, and the gifts come so frequently that you think it would be impossible to make them all without any mistakes. So you mend the clothes, fix the toys you can and just look at the pretty pictures in the books.

The gifts start having weird errors. Sleeves half sewn on, toy cars with 3 wheels on one side and only 1 on the other, animal figures that seem to be two different animals morphed together, like an elephant with a long giraffe neck. Storybooks become nonsensical, the pictures not matching the words.

Slowly the gifts are more frequent and elaborate. Onesies, pyjamas, plushies and toys. You can see the little creatures bringing them from time to time. Once you're able to follow one all the way back to where it came from, a small cupboard door under the stairs, but when you open there's only dust.

(I forget if the actual monster in Coraline is the house or just a different dimension with strange creatures.)

Just a couple weeks ago I didn't have hot water because the property didn't pay their utility bill and gas and electric was shut off! Could you image how quickly they'd cancel my month to month lease if I didn't pay on time even once… 🙃

Uh… gonna have to be organize my apartment and find someone to build a super cool loft bed for me. Everything else is just too nebulous, but those are things I have had front of mind for way too long.