I'm exhausted, you're exhausted and we are feeling collected pain as living creatures. All of us.

It’s not fair to let go for other and it isn’t fair to myself to hold on.
Honestly, when the next chance strikes, would I choose others? or would I choose myself? I don’t know.

-guilt evil people (no matter how angry it makes me.)

-would bring other relief that there's nothing they could?

The other is so spiteful, I want everyone to know the pain and suffering they caused my whole life, I want their awareness of the neglect and abuse but it would only really affect the people who have been willing to listen to me. I can’t

-The obvious answer is yes but what person wants to hear a lecture about how privileged they are? We always fix things when we are too late and notice good when it’s gone, anyways.

Part of me would want peace and quiet, not just for myself but to somehow prove my suffering in silence. Perhaps it

-serious but I always will have eyes on my back holding me hostage into something I didn’t ask for but MUST maintain.
“Last month would have been better”
I have to contemplate if there's anything even really good about my life.

-with EVERY month. I said September because that was suicide awareness month so it would be funny, couldn’t do October because of holidays, November has been my hardest month so far. Thanksgiving is such a nothing burger (and evil.)
All of it blew up yesterday and it was a real battle and I was so

takes she too

thanks grabs they and leaves

:p

tooooo

WANTTR

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