Sauce Brain 🔞
saucebrain.bsky.social
Sauce Brain 🔞
@saucebrain.bsky.social
I will post about thoughts on here.
Mostly hornyposting about my own OCs
Semi-unfiltered
Might also repost my own art with additional thoughts.
My art: https://bsky.app/profile/saucymcfuzzy.bsky.social
I feel like I have to just pretend everything is the same right now... Sorry if it's weird.
November 16, 2025 at 12:19 AM
I'm not sure how to deal with it
Like would it be innapropriate to just keep doing the stuff I usually do? Is it ok to still draw silly porn while this is happening? Is that weird? I don't know... I don't think I would think much of someone else doing it but I don't know.
November 16, 2025 at 12:19 AM
It always felt like she didn't love me.
And now that I get to actually believe it when she says it, that I can genuinely say it back without feeling like I HAVE to say it back
she's gonna be gone soon

I wish I'd tried better to patch things up
that I'd called more often
that I'd made more time
November 16, 2025 at 12:19 AM
I'm sad we didn't really get along until she started getting sick. It's like I'm finally getting a mother that feels like a mother, but only now that I'm losing her. I always thought it would be a relief when she's gone but now I feel like I didn't get to know her enough. This sucks.
November 16, 2025 at 12:19 AM
I'm gonna try and focus on work
maybe thinking about anatomy and like hands and stuff is gonna make it easier to not think about all that
November 11, 2025 at 5:44 PM
Sorry for the negativity
But I'm alone at home rn and need to get some thoughts out without feeling like no one's listening
November 11, 2025 at 5:29 PM
I think maybe this time she won't make it and it makes me worried for my dad. The idea of him being alone in a home full of her stuff but not her makes me so sad.

He's been taking care of her 24/7 for a long while now... Taking care of her has literally been his life since he retired
November 11, 2025 at 5:29 PM
CW: alcohol
The feeling was so bad I actually poured myself a glass before the phone call happened
It wasn't even noon yet
I never do that
Never done it before
I barely even drink at all anymore
But somehow I felt like I needed it
November 11, 2025 at 5:29 PM
ehehheh
October 30, 2025 at 2:20 PM
related: I so so SO wish I could experience Outer Wilds for the first time again
October 29, 2025 at 8:15 PM
update: listened to a song I can't listen to without crying and it cleared up my nose 😌
October 29, 2025 at 8:13 PM
with everything else going on, I think I actually want to give up this time

do some YCHs to hold me above water while I look for a real job.
September 17, 2025 at 5:42 PM
I want to be able to do more to make it possible (i.e: phone calls) but my battery's already on the last bar and the charger's fucked (AND I'm worried about getting banned)
September 1, 2025 at 7:39 PM