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🏳️‍🌈🚩🏳️‍⚧️ ...just your average mess of a german commie trans gal • Header pic based on a true story • Yes, of course I'm an author, shut up!
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Dear Santa,

I hope this finds you well.

Sorry for not writing since 1989, I was dead at the time.

In this context, please cancel my wishes for that pony, bmx bike, and sister.

But if you would be so kind:
I wish to be able to look in the mirror without despair, or crying.

Just once.

Hugs
Sasha
If nothing else, at least I tried ✌️🥹
December 16, 2024 at 9:59 PM
Before hrt, I was shaving my face 2 times a day.

After 17 months hrt, I'm still shaving my face 2 times a day, but the shadow became that much more visible and my skin is that much more sensitive and all of this is fucking me even more up than ever and everything's just meh and maybe I wanna scream
December 14, 2024 at 9:30 PM
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Merry third of advent 💫✨ 🕯️🕯️🕯️ 🎅

(Quote is from D Graeber. Fragments of an anarchist anthropology 2006: 72)
December 14, 2024 at 2:12 PM
Auch spannend so 🤔

"...bezahlbar MACHEN!"

statt

"bezahlbar BLEIBT."

"Machen", das so so so viel bessere Wording, imho.

Gestalten vs Reagieren.
Eintreten vs. Auffangen.
Erlebte Wirklichkeit vs. Abstiegsangst.
Positive Vision vs. Schlimmeres Verhindern.
Breitere vs. Spitzere Ansprache.
Das Leben bezahlbar machen!

Wir gehen das ganz konkret an und handeln auch noch vor der Wahl.

Für Familien und Arbeitnehmer*innen.

Schade, dass die CDU hierzu nicht bereit war.
December 13, 2024 at 5:35 PM
Meanwhile Germany:
👀
Oh please, yes!
December 13, 2024 at 5:08 PM
Thank you SO very much for my bloody enormous brow ridge, you thirsty fucks!
Neue Hinweise zu Vermischung mit Neandertalern
Durch Analysen der bisher ältesten Menschen-DNA haben Forscherinnen und Forscher neue Hinweise zur Vermischung von Neandertalern und modernen Menschen gefunden. Ein genetisch prägendes zentrales „Verm...
science.orf.at
December 13, 2024 at 10:45 AM
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It's easy to think trans kids are quietly coping, because you just don't have gender dysphoria & can't imagine it.

You chat with them about school, friends. Birthdays. The future. They seem fine. You forget what they told you before, tell yourself they're fine now they're older. Then it happens.
December 13, 2024 at 8:28 AM
But what if I WANT to be a spoiled upper class brat with as few braincells as the room temperature, with my very own Quango and my very own PR department on full-time, with all the right numbers in my phone, trying to make life a living hell for anybody else, just because I'm the main character?
December 12, 2024 at 7:27 PM
Two things can be true:

• It's never too late.

• Being devastated, broken beyond words, beyond any redemption by the terrible weight of all those lost years, by the sheer fact of a whole life not lived; the screaming grief, sorrow, pain of that loss, the whispering knowledge there's no going back.
December 12, 2024 at 11:42 AM
Can't touch:

• This
• A falling star
• CEOs (Well...)
• Most zoo animals
• Kevin Costner
• Deadlines
• All those of us who are lost, desperate, lonely, and this hurts, especially sometimes at 3 AM...
• Uranium
• Laser pointers
• WLAN cables
• You
December 11, 2024 at 9:35 PM
In Germany we don't say "your digital activism lacks crucial skills, insights, and most of all it's terrible old-fashioned and totally without any charm".

We say "Himmelarsch, wie altbacken kann mensch sein, zieh Dir doch mal den Stock aus dem Hintern!"

...and I think that's on point.
December 11, 2024 at 11:13 AM
Halt auch doof zu merken, dass wenn Du Dich dauernd hintanstellst niemand mehr hinter Dir steht...
December 11, 2024 at 11:02 AM
Won't end well:

• Capitalism
• A Song Of Ice and Fire
• You and me
• J. K. Rowling
• Cutting your own hair
• Hugging an ice bear
• Being a centrist
• Trusting friends
• "Nobody's that dumb..."
• My transition
• Capitalism
• Lists
December 10, 2024 at 9:43 PM
Peak anxiety, curled up in bed with my coziest biggest hoodie, my heart racing in my throat, one arm hiding most of my face, and scrolling and scrolling and scrolling, searching for if only I'd know...
December 10, 2024 at 2:01 PM
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Ich hab mal gelesen, wer auf die Frage:

"Hattest du ne schöne Kindheit?"

nachdenken muss, hatte keine.

Es ist wahr.
December 10, 2024 at 8:34 AM
<-- Again and again mildy surprised about the self-righteous jingoism in german social media discourse 🤷‍♀️
December 9, 2024 at 6:49 PM
In Germany we don't say "wenn wir nicht dringend mal den freidrehenden Kapitalismus als Ursache angehen, wird der Faschismus gewinnen".

We say "geil abschieben erstmal!"

...and I didn't expect anything else 🤬
December 9, 2024 at 2:58 PM
First winter, well, "winter", on hrt...

...send cozy scarves, gloves, socks!!! 🥶🥶🥶
December 9, 2024 at 10:40 AM
Ya, c'mon 😔
December 8, 2024 at 9:52 PM
This nagging feeling I would have surrendered a long, long, long time ago.

Alas, to whom?
December 7, 2024 at 9:39 PM
"OMGOMGOMG!"
"Yes."
"Uh?"
"I said yes."
"Uh?"
"I'm afraid you finally made it."
"Uh?
"Please stop saying that. Your ride is over. The end. Kaputt."
"Uh? Sorry. Sooo I never got my OPs?"
"Never. But hey, after all nothing ever happened anyway, so."
"All my anxiety was for nought?"
"Kinda."
"Bugger."
December 7, 2024 at 7:45 PM
Dear Santa,

I hope this finds you well.

Sorry for not writing since 1989, I was dead at the time.

In this context, please cancel my wishes for that pony, bmx bike, and sister.

But if you would be so kind:
I wish to be able to look in the mirror without despair, or crying.

Just once.

Hugs
Sasha
December 7, 2024 at 9:46 AM
Getting hit by anxiety cause i woke up? 🤔

Waking up cause i got hit by anxiety? 🤔

I srs don't know anymore 🙄
December 7, 2024 at 9:13 AM
Maybe that's something deeply human - trying to give freely what one is desperately needing the most...
Diejenigen, die am häufigsten helfen, sind auch diejenigen, denen es am schwersten fällt, um Hilfe zu bitten.
December 6, 2024 at 7:47 PM
Tearing up seeing my face that little moment it took the bus driver to open the door, almost losing it whispering that very quick goodmorning, seeking shelter in the nearest seat, and while I try to focus on the world outside I can feel a single tear running down my cheek.

Just another friday.
December 6, 2024 at 8:50 AM