That little hope she had stumbled against Denji's hesitation and it all came crashing down around her psychologically. I think she gave herself to violence because that was easy, that was familiar. More emotionally manageable to accept disappointment than cling to possibility

she most certainly was wasting a whole lot of time, that's part of the tragedy ("Why didn't I kill you when we first met/I've never been to school either"). she wanted to cling to the hope that they could be together and i think in that moment I think something broke inside her

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I fell in love with the style on sight

The common yet deadly Asa typo

Hope you get better