Viele tolle Kanäle/Menschen wurden schon genannt, aber ich schau auch noch gerne:
@jacintheattic
@Shaiyeh
@Tfwcrochet
@madeinthemoment

I had my sleep-issues under control for so long but this coupled with the problems with my neck (have to sleep on my back, positional vertigo gets really bad sometimes, waiting for an MRI) is just too much.
And trying to sleep knowing that my partner is angry at me doesn’t help at all 😢

It’s been two nights so far, two more to go.
Last night Partner got angry because I tried to nudge him gently to turn over so he doesn’t snore in my ear at least.
I’m contemplating sleeping on the sofa, but that will be so bad for my neck and should not risk another week-long vertigo attack 🫠

Fühl dich umarmt, wenn du magst 🫂💚

18/18 big granny squares for my project are done 🥳
But now they all need single crochet borders 🫠

Now I only have to see how to reduce stress 🙃🙃🙃

(Please don't give me health advice or speculate about potential causes of my symptoms, that will only set me off again 🫠)

And thank you for reading this novel 💚

(10/10)

But back to the nice physiotherapist - he showed me some stretching exercises, took the time to massage and check a knot in my muscle that really bothered me, and told me how to fix my neck at home. My neck hurts a bit now, but I’m relieved that it’s nothing urgent. (9/?)

And it didn’t help my already messed-up introspection.
Luckily, I’m already in therapy. I have an appointment tomorrow and I will discuss all this. Haven't seen her for almost a month, and these last few weeks have been a roller-coaster. (8/?)

That really messed me up anxiety-wise. I’m scared that something like this will happen again, because if it happened once, it could happen again. I don’t trust myself anymore, because I ignored my symptoms back then. But I also don’t trust myself because I’m overreacting all the time. (7/?)

I was so scared that it was just going to stay that way. I kept the entire week stumbling, disassociating, and feeling sick because of the constant dizziness. I was not fun. I felt like a repeat of my vacation in 2022 that ended with an emergency surgery (the whole thing with the sepsis…). (6/?)

My introspection is not that good sometimes.
Background to the whole story: Two weeks ago, I wanted to go on vacation, and I moved my head weirdly (?) and then I had the worst vertigo ever. I took a whole week (while I was on vacation) to get better. (5/?)

It worked once when I developed sepsis from a freak accident, and the aftermath forced me to take a 7-month break when I was on the brink of a breakdown anyway. Luckily, I used my time to get into therapy, but I never really made the connection between stress and my symptoms. (4/?)

My therapist and I discussed that it is my brain trying to tell me to slow down, and since I tend to not listen it tries the only thing that ever worked - make me (or at least try to convince me that) I’m literally too sick to keep going. (3/?)

But my latest anxiety (or whatever, I don't even know anymore…) symptom is, that my brain tells me that I have some new potentially deadly thing every time I get too stressed/burned out. (2/?)

Thank you 💚
I‘d rather not start a fight at work. The past has shown that people will support their work-besties, no matter what, and I‘ll be ostracized (again) 🫤
But if it gets worse/becomes a regular thing, I’ll have to talk to my boss.