Nevermind actually its their fault and I am once again a blameless victim of everyone i know and love seeking to hurt me

I might be an abusive partner :DDDDDD

the only departments i see him fitting in are Training (which has long since passed) and maybe Records? he would have been a good fit for Welfare too but oh well. He fits better in Records than Extraction or Disciplinary, and I somewhat doubt that Architecture is getting any IDs.

I don't have a problem with them being more normal than me, I just don't want them to think im evil for the stuff im into. Like I hate it too, I didn't choose this, I wish every day that I could just be a normal person who hates this stuff.

They just think im into being generically harsh while domming how the hell am I supposed to tell them that they're accidentally insulting me to my face. I would hope they'd be understanding about it but nabdugidnslabrlfjvurkfbxhejgn

One of my partners (who doesn't know the extent of my being into weird stuff) sent me this and I get its meant to be funny but it really just makes me even more afraid to tell them about what I'm into than I already was. qwq

It extends to looks too. I can think of about three people who I would consider attractive without hours of work put in beforehand, because human features are inherently ugly. It's full of asymmetry and awful textures and color disparities and all sorts of blemishes and marks and all that.

It's not even just a sexual thing, like. Skin and hair, muscles and nerves, fluids. Eating and fucking and sweating and hair and skin cells. It's all horrid.

I know i talk about rp stuff a lot but you gotta understand this is basically my only sexual outlet. Im gonna die a virign dude let me have this

Like. You're making your own versions of these characters, if not fully new ones. And yet there's a weird atmosphere of incentivizing hiding the fact that it's a person writing everything? There's really not a difference between co-writing and fic and rp, but the vibe is completely different