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i played ithacropolis for like 30 minutes w/ snowgd_ in call and i got 33 to 83% :sob: what is this Dude
November 21, 2025 at 5:43 PM
i finally have something to post / benchmark here again! i started practicing my tapping w/ a different technique and it does look promising! so i am posting these for myself as a milestone

day 1 of deathstreaming

before: and after:
November 4, 2025 at 7:22 AM
ring ring ring ring ring ring the phone 🔊☎️ Hello?
July 25, 2025 at 2:47 PM
can you hear that?
July 25, 2025 at 1:19 AM
-light tunnel ahead. this is all a "it's only in your head" scenario and i know best and can't forgive it

and this is kinda a follow up post to a month ago posts and it has gotten better in most cases but worse

have a wonderful day 3/3 (the real End)
July 23, 2025 at 7:34 PM
i am slowly forgetting for what use am i online

hope to best i can somewhat become productive again and feel the reason for whom i am doing this for.

i can't lower my expectations either because i still BELIEVE in my head someone can do better but not

rambling won't do much but maybe i can see-
July 23, 2025 at 7:32 PM
i feel like this year has been more challenging than i expected and i can't do it without symbolizing myself.
i need to establish a filter on people's face because i can't work like i used to before, i wanna start a different alias because i wanna move on from the community

3/-3
July 23, 2025 at 7:27 PM
sucks to suck my reputation built so instinctually down low, many times i tried to do better or failed to because i can't feel comfortable with my own-self to people. i left older friend groups and completely cut off people on purpose to feel more home but i was not. i am lonely and can't stop it2/3
July 23, 2025 at 7:23 PM
i don't wanna vent to my friend's dms so will do it here as a self-reminder but i am sick of internet at this point

i am just so tired of feeling emotionally drained by my owning myself to do better, trying to follow up and catch more opportunities have never been so surrounded with apethy
1/3
July 23, 2025 at 7:20 PM
changing my alias online (might be short but still worth it)
July 16, 2025 at 1:00 PM
tiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtiredtired
June 24, 2025 at 10:59 PM
with all that said, summer Sucks i hate summer like Why the hell Do you like summer? i Hate summer like GOD stop the suffering and the blastering i just wanna BREATHE

maybe i will update further on depending how i feel BUTTTT that's another story Perhaps IDK 5/?
June 14, 2025 at 1:27 AM
i cut off my older friend groups and would much rather live on that hill and now i found my own comfort zone and it helps, so i guess now i am just developing myself how i can find passion and affection through someone? idk it just a really 3am thoughts in your head just hits and ban-hammers you 4/?
June 14, 2025 at 1:25 AM
especially online i just had a shitty and awful reputation with friend groups making feel like everyone surrounded me is just a jerk for no reason, making me insecure to show my hobbies or expressing ideas

just awful really but over the course of these years i really got over it and that's good 3/?
June 14, 2025 at 1:21 AM
like it's quite representive when i do or say stuff, i do not say anything to mean it's public sentences clear, i like to clue people in but right now it just feels completely opposite?

recently i kind off wish i was the first choice to someone than being the 287434346th person in line waiting 2/?
June 14, 2025 at 1:15 AM
i think it is time for quite some ranting!!

anyways these past few days i have been really confused with certain thoughts that provocates me

like it's kind of strange but at the same it does make sense? i really haven't showed affection to my friends or anything in gesture because it's obvious 1/?
June 14, 2025 at 1:10 AM
i have been really silent but socials have probably been at the lowest they ever been((which makes me wanna stop using em)only connection through discord)

i try and Communicate more here but everything has been alright by the most part, my motivation is back and i wanna do much more

stay safe team
June 7, 2025 at 12:54 PM
epic fail
April 14, 2025 at 7:16 AM
i got another 47 to 100% and i feel really good about it, i gonna have to play this level nearly everyday if i wanna get somewhere
April 7, 2025 at 1:07 AM
pass prohibited: you do not meet the requirements
April 6, 2025 at 1:34 AM
i am holding tight and close with ithacropolis but this is starting to be a diary with full of rage and hatred
April 5, 2025 at 11:04 PM
i have been grinding pressure to get sub 30's and i finally accomplished my goal! i also had to take a break from grinding gd because it has been too way too tiring for me, gonna pick that up today or either tomorrow depending howi feel
March 24, 2025 at 4:30 PM
83%WOWWWWW

after my 80% previous best,i had struggled IMMENSELY with the level and couldn't get a 2nd drop attempt in days

this really livitated my self and keep myself calm., really happy about this as we are approaching the end game
March 5, 2025 at 11:40 PM
got 72% six days ago to the wave after passing it 3 times

but finally i got a new personal best today! 80%!!

we are on the merge to the edge now. game is finally game.
February 28, 2025 at 11:55 PM
i tried speedrunning celeste and this is my best result
January 26, 2025 at 3:22 AM