I definitely feel that my life is better for having had you in it. I learned things from you, my perspective has been broadened, I have had new experiences with and because of you, and overall I am a better person because you have been and are in my life. Thank you for being part of my life.

Yeah, that tracks.

I’m not actually asking for anything. It’s just been weighing on my mind.

I feel selfish expressing my desires to other people. However, this one was gnawing at me the more I kept it in my head.

7/7

I don’t know what that means. I don’t know what that looks like. As mentioned, I don’t even care about the number.

It just feels wrong and depressing to consider 40 passing alone and pathetic like previous years.

6/7

I don’t begrudge anyone. After all, it’s not about me… to me… if that makes sense.

It just kind of makes me feel like a loser that nobody cares about.

But for 40, I want it to be special.

5/?

In previous years I’ve tried planning something specific, or doing an unorganized, informal, general invitation to “let’s do something”

Sometimes I get some interest.

Usually few to nobody actually shows up.

It’s… disheartening. Especially because of my desire to celebrate connections.

4/?

I know that birthdays are supposed to not be as big of a thing as you get older, but I’ve always seen them as a way to celebrate connections and experiences with people.

3/?

I’ve been feeling lonely for a good long while. I’m single and romantically hopeless. I don’t really have a lot of friends to hang out with, and even less time or energy to do so.

I have plenty of family time, sure, but I’m more referring to community connections here.

2/?

That’s a hell of a cast, too!

I don’t know what you need, but please feel free to reach out if you want to talk about it. Hope I can help in some way.