I'm so glad!! Please excuse the ramble, I'm happy it was a bit helpful though.
I wish you all the best with these feelings. It's super difficult when it all feeds into real bills and career decisions.

I think everyone deserves to seek out resonance. I also believe that most people have a form of this exchange in their lives. Art is just one of them.
This sounds weird but: I believe all of these exchanges matter, because in a way, resonance is life.

I believe that connection is some of the most powerful stuff out there.
As a quite disconnected person, art is my way of expressing my humanity, causing tiny ripples in people's lives. Whenever my art resonates, I enjoy the echo and gifts I receive back.

I understand.
I don't know if this is useful to you, but to give an example: the purpose of my art is to communicate with like-minded people — to create resonance.
I like to send people the emotions I'm feeling, the stories I'm thinking about — it's a gift of connection in this strange world.

Internalising that art is communication gave me a big push out of burnout, but it also deepened the dissonance I suffer every time I work a gig I don't care about.

Making any art at all is so hard. Making someone else's art is both draining and adds massive creative debt.

If I wasn't currently on a path to work on my own art full-time I would likely throw the towel and go back to uni.

I found that I need to believe in my art (even/especially if it's personal and foolish), and that sustainable, healthy work is personal work.

I'm pushing to pay my bills this way.

Luckily it wasn't much, thank you!

Understood, thank you Anjin!!

(Support email sent, fingers crossed I can fix it myself oh my God)

@anjinanhut.bsky.social Have you had this issue before by any chance?

yuckkkkk

90% of this reaction is due to me consistently checking the calendar at 2am

HUGELY agree with this beautiful loaf

The Champagne of squeaky cheese

loveeeeee this!

💕🫂 !!!