i wonder why i even exist sometimes

im unbelievable levels of loser. im just a guy. im never going to feel good enough about myself to actually be a girl. im a fucking dateless loser im depressed abd im chronically obsessed to ppl thousands of miles away from me

i will never get people who fake stuff for internet points you don't want this dude

im still really unsure whether i have bpd or not but im sure on the anxious attachment part

at least i feel better about not giving in to my thoughts on how im trying to get attention or something by being mentally ill because like. oh i really wish i wasn't like this rn

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she is so me it hurts

overall though once i get over a laundry list of stuff i think it's better off that we just don't think of eachother at all. ever. we're better off that way.

Also it's not like I'm a whale or something. I'm relatively healthy for someone who doesn't go outside, my metabolism is great. I beg please just let me take walks instead I'd much rather that than going to the realm of sweaty redpilled guys.