Truly.

Ultimately, this hypothetical inclusion in this email probably hasn't happened and I should stop being weird about this.

It's a relatively minor thing in the grand scheme, but like... this is really grinding at me and I don't know why.

Honestly, I think it's just because of the thought of being used a prop for someone else's argument. I respect their issues with this, but do not desire to be used as a point

And I am especially having brain worms at the idea of other trans masc player implying this doll is a problem for me for trans reasons, when I explictly told TMP it was not. I know they sent an email, but I am not sure when in relation to me saying this that they sent it, or talking with our mutual

I do not like having words or feelings put in my mouth. Especially for something this personal. Trans masc people are not a monolith.

But i'm getting brain worms because a mutual friend messaged me concerned that I was having the same issues for the same reasons, and well, no. But I guess other trans masc person kind of implied to mutual friend that was the case, and that spiked my brain hard.

But this also led to having a discussion with another trans masc person in our community who mentioned that it gives them massive ick to have themes around pregnancy and babies due to trans reasons. Which, fair! Not an issue i have, but I respect it.

So of course my local larp just acquired one for... something. Not sure what yet. I have asked to be given a signal to fuck off if it comes around while i'm in the area.

Re: baby dolls: they hit my uncanny valley so hard they wrap back around to my brain going "that is a dead child" and it's a super uncomfortable feeling and I therefore do not want to be around them

It's done! I'm quite happy with this end product. Can't wait to give it away to it's new owner. #nerf