I have ideas in my head. I don't know how to start or feel incapable of starting them.

My plan was to actually study for the courses I dropped but I haven't done that. I want to feel like doing it. I need to.

I don't know how to get that feeling or actually do it.

This just feels frustrating.

I've gone on my bike but I am not really sure if that's a source of joy or just an effective distraction. But I also don't go every day and it's like 3 to 4 hours outside.

So the rest of the time I am rotting away.

I started playing Super Mario Galaxy 2. That didn't satisfy me somehow.

I ended up doom scrolling reddit now. Or doom scrolling Discord servers. It is extremely pathetic. Just something to try to find some satisfaction but I find nothing and sometimes I just end up overwhelmed from keeping on going and going.

I hope it's not too cold. 2/2