But it will hurt more if I do not allow myself some space and a little kindness.

I must give myself some grace.
I must give myself kindness.
I must be gentle.

The evening.

I must be kind to myself but at the same, the sudden urge to be mean to myself is all too strong right now.

I feel sick.
I feel disgusting.

But,, healing ain't linear and it is something I am learning gradually to accept. I won't be perfect or at 100% all the time and it hurts