it's all because of them. those two are the biggest reasons I can feel so much; why I've started to love myself, and be more confident in myself. they're the people who brought out the best in me.
and I get to spend another year with them by my side. I'm the luckiest person alive.

and I hated it.
being numb is just as miserable as being sad. i just didn't know how to feel my emotions without feeling like I was wrong for doing so.

now I can be sad. i can be happy. I can be anything I want to be. I'm so fucking upset because I miss them but I'm so happy their in my life. -

grateful, and a little exhilarated by the fact that I'm able to cry so easily. the fact that I can be sad openly, and I can put these feelings into words and actions.

i used to be unable to cry without it feeling like the world was crushing me to dust. i chose being numb over feeling anything. -

idk how they showed you but making sure to shove the pill all the way back to their throat with your finger, then holding their muzzle shut for a while (with their face aimed up so it goes down easier) is how I do it. some cats are easier than others, and some can get used to it.

one thing to try is to burrito wrap the cat prior! I'm not sure if you've ever done this or if your cat would let you, but it can immobilize them or even calm them, depending on the cat.

like wtf are they gonna do about Evil Eye now??

giving cats pills is really difficult, lmk if you need help!

was this just my destiny all along? or maybe it was the choices I made? did I do something to deserve this?
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how long do I have to hurt? how much longer?
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throwing this in here, it's only semi related, but autistic characters who aren't autistic in story but you know they actually are 😂

i don't mean headcanons such as Izuku midoriya from bnha

I'm talking characters like Rei Kiriyama from March Comes in Like a Lion; his father as well

oh, and Saiki Kusuo was such an amazing twist, although I do wish it was directly addressed in the anime. you kinda just have to look it up to even find out about him.

i get really excited about certain things in anime and shows i watch, I'm ngl. trans, nonbinary, aro, ace, and disabled characters that aren't created solely based on stereotypes. it's my favorite thing.

i think it started with a GNC mc named Haruhi in ohshc, back when I watched that 😂

i think i might have to go crazy for the end of the year celebration 🎉 I'm not sure how I'll do it last minute, but I'll try my damn best to make it happen.