Idk where I'm going with this tbh. Surrounded by friends who are in long lasting relationships, getting married soon, and I can't help feeling left out in that aspect. I'm gonna be starting my own life when I graduate in like a year and I want that too eventually. Idk, I'm lonely and I'm scared

Am I gonna keep hurting people by having to tell them that the feelings just vanished? Do I need to suck it up next time around? It's a very suffocating feeling and I don't want to do that to myself or other people.

it has happened with every relationship (if you can even call them that). I thought maybe it was for other reasons but this is a reoccurring thing since my first one. I long for closeness but I fear that I'll not be able to have it. Will it keep happening? Do I just need the right person?

so I found out that I'm aromantic recently, cool, that's ok. The way I experience it is that I do feel romantic attraction, but it just goes out like a light switch was turned off one day. Nothing to spur it, no in-between feelings. Just poof, gone, and replaced by this feeling of dread and anxiety