:(

also crying a lot

and i wondered if it's rooted in a deep realization that i would never ever be able to work 40hours again in this job

yes, i have to keep in mind that i possibly could destroy my favourite hobby and thats something i need to consider, but thinking about it doesn't hurt right?

wool and yarn saved me in my darkest times perhaps it's time to do something with this passion. like working something where i don't mind putting hours in without thinking about my wage as damage compensation

really nasty how this one thing affected my whole week

it also helps a LOT that my boss somehow snapped out of his whiny tantrum phase where everyone isn't doing enough???

i also talked about the art school i would have wanted to go back then to my princess which really made me excited about life and that i don't have to stick to the path i'm on right now

also talking about our feelings regularly helps me a lot

exactly! once i'm over it im really really over it

it's always been this way idk if it's the autismn but i cant do things i don't stand behind, things i'm not interested in. it was the same in school and it's the same now.

i'm tired of being let down, i'm tired of getting my hopes up.

i should propably eat sth too