It will only last a year which at that point I should move on to a new place potentially 😶

I’m sorry

This is how I feel.

I might have dug myself into a deeper hole because I’m getting significantly involved in the evaluation community, and if I’m not able to meet everybody’s expectations, it’ll be disappointing not only for me but also for others

This reminded me of one of my insecurities: constantly struggling with mathematics, even though I’ve gotten better at it and can do applied statistics.
But even still, I worry because I just applied to grad school, and I don’t know if I’ll be able to be as effective as I would like to be.