STRAY KIDS Hyunjin

As lonely as it has been just being Covid cautious, I really don’t have the capacity for any more friends or lovers who are not masking and taking intentional precautions.

XLOV Rui

Maybe I should give in and just be toxic. What's the point in trying so hard to not act on my trauma responses when I'm fucking alone anyways? All this work for what?!

And I've always been stuck by myself. Always had to deal by myself. The people who should've been caring shoveled the dirt over my face. I'll never know what it's fucking like to be loved by someone who would go to the end of earth for me.

I'm genuinely fucking crumbling and there's nothing anyone can do about it. The people I want to be with are hundreds of miles away, not that they'd make the trip anyways. There's no options that don't put me at risk for covid or racism. I'm fucking stuck with this shit by myself

I kept telling myself before the pandemic that I was going to make time to find my chosen family. When I wasn't in classes I was working. When I wasn't working I was too tired to join any clubs or go to any events that weren't in my dorm. I never got a fair shot at finding a family to begin with

I'm really just past my fucking limit. I can't do this anymore. I've been isolated for so long. I have to work with fascists & it drives me up the fucking wall having to hold back my anger. I come home to nothing. To no one. I haven't had a genuine fucking hug in 5 years now. no one fucking cares.

I desperately wish I could be carefree; smiling at strangers & sparking up random conversations on the bus, not having to think about the type of people I work with, or worry about my safety around white people. But nobody masks. Everyone is zionist. Fascist. Antiblack. Ableist. & I can't unsee it.

Idk why I keep trying.

Mmmmm leeknow on my mind

I should stop falling in love w cancer moons

I really am uramichi oniisan

I just don't know if I'll every get used to being punished for using my voice.

No matter how nicely or respectfully I bring up the harm of certain words people use on the internet, I always get jumped & end up going back & forth with someone who clearly doesn't care. & it hurts a ton tbh, seeing in real time racism & ableism invalidated

I did not realize random people would be able to easily interact with my page so easily um...white people you aren't welcome here! Neither are non masking individuals who claim to be leftists.

LMFAOOOOOOO this is the greatest tiktok i’ve ever seen

Today’s quick update [Dec 19]:

- SAF airstrikes reported in Bahri, Khartoum today, targeting RSF positions in the city.

- Clashes continued in Elfashir, North Darfur.

- RSF attack on trade convoys traveling on Tawila-Elfashir road yesterday; 1 civilian reported killed.

#KeepEyesOnSudan

Please tell me yall remember Giuseppi from the Urbz and the Sims 2. Please tell me you get the pfp reference 😭