Romana Baltasar (She/Her)
@romanabaltasar.bsky.social
🏳️⚧️ proud trans woman 🌈 pan 🐾 dog mom to a beautiful pit-mix 🎵 loves industrial music (😍 futurepop and electro!)
On lamotrigine now. Still on olanzapine, as well.
December 22, 2025 at 4:48 AM
On lamotrigine now. Still on olanzapine, as well.
So bored, lol.
December 22, 2025 at 4:47 AM
So bored, lol.
I have to figure out my living situation now. Bills and everything else. I was set up for failure, but I don't want to act fatalistic. If anything, this betrayal motivates me to succeed and improve my life.
June 27, 2025 at 3:47 PM
I have to figure out my living situation now. Bills and everything else. I was set up for failure, but I don't want to act fatalistic. If anything, this betrayal motivates me to succeed and improve my life.
Abuse sucks. Now I know how I was treated was absolutely horrendous, and there is no going back. It's so disappointing, but at least I have people to lean on for support.
June 27, 2025 at 3:36 PM
Abuse sucks. Now I know how I was treated was absolutely horrendous, and there is no going back. It's so disappointing, but at least I have people to lean on for support.
I'm not gonna give up on people. Crazy how even something like boredom can spiral like that, so I need to be aware and stay focused. Idk how honestly, but yeah, lol. I've been pretty good since Saturday, at least.
June 22, 2025 at 11:04 AM
I'm not gonna give up on people. Crazy how even something like boredom can spiral like that, so I need to be aware and stay focused. Idk how honestly, but yeah, lol. I've been pretty good since Saturday, at least.
Apparently, I have mood swings even when I'm not aware of them. Maybe mood stabilizers dim the internal experience but not the outward expression so much?
June 22, 2025 at 10:49 AM
Apparently, I have mood swings even when I'm not aware of them. Maybe mood stabilizers dim the internal experience but not the outward expression so much?
At least I was able to kinda get back on my own freaking side. Cuz I wanna live and can't be having issues with that.
June 21, 2025 at 8:57 AM
At least I was able to kinda get back on my own freaking side. Cuz I wanna live and can't be having issues with that.
Feeling empathy again. Undeniably. Even for people who I feel screwed me over. That fucking sucks. I mean, it's good. It just might make things harder.
June 21, 2025 at 8:34 AM
Feeling empathy again. Undeniably. Even for people who I feel screwed me over. That fucking sucks. I mean, it's good. It just might make things harder.
I'm using a mood tracker app again. Good thing cuz damn these meds. Work better! Lol.
June 21, 2025 at 8:32 AM
I'm using a mood tracker app again. Good thing cuz damn these meds. Work better! Lol.
Felt hopeless at like 8:40-50am yesterday. That sucked. Cuz you really don't wanna die, but you just feel like nobody matters, including yourself, and nothing will make you feel better. Just feeling like life does not matter and isn't worth it.
June 21, 2025 at 8:30 AM
Felt hopeless at like 8:40-50am yesterday. That sucked. Cuz you really don't wanna die, but you just feel like nobody matters, including yourself, and nothing will make you feel better. Just feeling like life does not matter and isn't worth it.
Yesterday was rough. Mood swings suck. I have relief now, but I probably had like 8 of them just in the 3 hour span waiting in the waiting room for my appointment. That coupled with perception issues like thinking I'm a fuck up/bad person. Maybe paranoid, too. These meds let me feel too much.
June 21, 2025 at 8:24 AM
Yesterday was rough. Mood swings suck. I have relief now, but I probably had like 8 of them just in the 3 hour span waiting in the waiting room for my appointment. That coupled with perception issues like thinking I'm a fuck up/bad person. Maybe paranoid, too. These meds let me feel too much.
Storming outside, lol. Fun.
June 15, 2025 at 11:20 AM
Storming outside, lol. Fun.
I'll say things like I care but actual feelings are sporadic. 😕
Just behaving on autopilot, I guess. Including talking too much about how I think I'm supposed to feel. Not that I miss feelings that much, lol. It's just a bit confusing, tbh. I dunno. Trying to figure things out. xD
Just behaving on autopilot, I guess. Including talking too much about how I think I'm supposed to feel. Not that I miss feelings that much, lol. It's just a bit confusing, tbh. I dunno. Trying to figure things out. xD
June 15, 2025 at 11:19 AM
I'll say things like I care but actual feelings are sporadic. 😕
Just behaving on autopilot, I guess. Including talking too much about how I think I'm supposed to feel. Not that I miss feelings that much, lol. It's just a bit confusing, tbh. I dunno. Trying to figure things out. xD
Just behaving on autopilot, I guess. Including talking too much about how I think I'm supposed to feel. Not that I miss feelings that much, lol. It's just a bit confusing, tbh. I dunno. Trying to figure things out. xD
Medication sucks. I've been kinda flat emotionally since like October. Super bored all the time. Better than other stuff but still. This medication is gonna be the same way it seems. Lol. I'll take it.
June 15, 2025 at 11:14 AM
Medication sucks. I've been kinda flat emotionally since like October. Super bored all the time. Better than other stuff but still. This medication is gonna be the same way it seems. Lol. I'll take it.
This lurasidone is kicking my butt, lol. Started taking it Wednesday cuz I wanted something that wouldn't nuke my feelings as much. Not to say that was a bad thing just I want to rely on myself better so I need to freak the fuck out sometimes so I can benefit from DBT.
June 14, 2025 at 1:15 AM
This lurasidone is kicking my butt, lol. Started taking it Wednesday cuz I wanted something that wouldn't nuke my feelings as much. Not to say that was a bad thing just I want to rely on myself better so I need to freak the fuck out sometimes so I can benefit from DBT.
Gonna start some meditation therapy soon. Idk what it's called if anything. This is in addition to Dialectical Behavior Therapy.
May 31, 2025 at 12:15 AM
Gonna start some meditation therapy soon. Idk what it's called if anything. This is in addition to Dialectical Behavior Therapy.
Started Dialectical Behavior Therapy today.
April 11, 2025 at 11:50 PM
Started Dialectical Behavior Therapy today.
Got diagnosed with BPD recently. Must be pretty mild.
March 20, 2025 at 12:33 AM
Got diagnosed with BPD recently. Must be pretty mild.
Libertarians try to make conservatism cool. That's evil. Obviously. Anarchocapitalists try to make feudalism cool. That's ... I don't even know how that's possible. But hey - landlord "anarchy".. blech!
February 9, 2024 at 5:40 PM
Libertarians try to make conservatism cool. That's evil. Obviously. Anarchocapitalists try to make feudalism cool. That's ... I don't even know how that's possible. But hey - landlord "anarchy".. blech!