i hope ferrari makes an actual title-worthy car so he and lewis can really show what they got

fair, not doing any favors having this on the last page of my phone

i really gotta learn how to use this app more lol

can't believe msn/bluesky went whatever the opposite of woke is lmao

basically,

idk maybe i’m just doing all of this for attention. maybe there isn’t actually anything wrong with me at all and i just want attention. that’s all anything i say ever feels like. i’m so broken that i can never accept anyones help without thinking that i’ve coerced them somehow and they’d rather not.

even my fucking cats probably hate me now too. it’s just……..so fucking over. even if i cry out for help and attention, it’s just gonna get either ignored or reluctantly answered for two seconds to make sure i don’t jump off a cliff.

i really just wanna disappear for a while so i don’t become a burden to anyone else. and yes this is all probably from the hormone dose change and my adhd meds getting stronger but it doesn’t excuse me being the biggest shithead in the world to people who just try to care about me.

…and everyone that really cares about me. idk, maybe i wasn’t cut out for human interaction and should just work my boring life away at my boring job so no one around me can get bored and/or hurt anymore.