I'm tired of spending every day alone. I'm tired of spending every holiday alone. I'm fucking tired. I just wanna be happy. I just wanna be cared about. I just wanna be loved.

I feel like I could disappear and no one would notice I just wanna have a friend who actually cares. I don't wanna be alone. As a big man I'm expected to suck it up and "be a man" well I'm tired of sucking it up and ruining myself to the point of self harm.

they were family the only family i had now im alone im broken and hurt idk what to do

i will never forget the memories and the love we all shared maybe in another life i wouldn't let it get to so bad. im broken and heartbroken im going on hiatus